Picture eighteen year old me
I walked through life aimlessly
Desperate to be anywhere else
Drank the night away shamelessly
But then when early morning comes
Stomach heaving with regret
The same girl as yesterday
Sitting at home the reject
Tomorrow might be a new day
But with no road map to follow
Too many forgotten nights
Only leave me feeling hollow
The cracks are showing in this path I’m on
Cause I don’t want to live fast, die young
Just eighteen and a cautionary tale
It’s more brothers Grimm than a fairytale
And if I should die before I wake
Then I’ll know this path was my mistake
There’s no future in living for today
Eighteen years I’ve just wasted away
Stuck outside the adulthood club
Can we fast forward or rewind
The pressure of planning ahead
Is what’s keeping me behind
With no thought of tomorrow
I just wanted to escape
In the bottom of the bottle
That’s where I found my twisted fate
Cause the time I spent wasted
Wasted too much fucking time
Now I’m too old to be young
But too young to give up and die
The cracks are showing in this path I’m on
Cause I don’t want to live fast, die young
Just eighteen and a cautionary tale
It’s more brothers Grimm than a fairytale
And if I should die before I wake
Then I’ll know this path was my mistake
There’s no future in living for today
Eighteen years I’ve just wasted away
There were times I wanted to forget
Sweaty bodies pressed together
With no more thoughts of tomorrow
I’d live in this moment forever
But after more drinks than I could count
I couldn’t make the room stay still
With my memory fading in and out
I woke up with blank spaces to fill
The cracks are showing in this path I’m on
Cause I don’t want to live fast, die young
Just eighteen and a cautionary tale
It’s more brothers Grimm than a fairytale
And if I should die before I wake
Then I’ll know this path was my mistake
There’s no future in living for today
Eighteen years I’ve just wasted away
Love
Roxanne