Every night I wake
As the screaming starts
I’m just gasping for air
To slow my racing heart
I try hard to forget
So I’ll play hide and seek
With these feelings inside
I never wish to meet
I’m ok for now
But it just won’t last
These feelings I hide
They won’t stay in the past

I need a future
Where this doesn’t happen
Just waiting for the day
When I can breathe again
I just need to know
Will it ever end
I’m tired of waiting
When can I breathe again

Just below to surface
I can feel those I hide
I still wake up gasping
I’m too tired to fight
People say talking helps
So on the couch I lie
The way things are now
It couldn’t hurt to try
Hiding hadn’t worked
Neither had pretending
This is my last hope
Of this nightmare ending

I need a future
Where this doesn’t happen
Just waiting for the day
When I can breathe again
I just need to know
Will it ever end
I’m tired of waiting
When can I breathe again

Screaming, gunshots, blood everywhere
Things I can’t hide behind my blank stare
Since that day I’ve been quite scared
Maybe it’s time I started to share

I need a future
Where this doesn’t happen
Just waiting for the day
When I can breathe again
I just need to know
Will it ever end
I’m tired of waiting
When can I breathe again

Love
Roxanne