I tell myself I’ll be ok
That I don’t need it
I’ll get my life back
I’ll be normal.
But then that feeling comes
That need for it
That desperation
And I always give in.

I just can’t help it
It’s the new normal
It’s become an addiction
A dirty habit
I don’t know if I can
But I have to break free

Then comes the regret
I make myself sick
But it doesn’t matter
It’s already done.
No one can know
About my habit
They’ll send me away
But I’ll be ok.

I just can’t help it
It’s the new normal
It’s become an addiction
A dirty habit
I don’t know if I can
But I have to break free

They’ll tell me to stop
That what I’m doing is bad
But I’m trying to fix it
Just not the way they want
I’m going try my way
To fix my problem
To become normal
To become thin.

It’s become an addiction
A dirty habit
I don’t know why
But I just can’t break free

Love
Roxanne