I can’t help that shine in my eyes
The one I always blame on dust
But I won’t let the tears fall
Or else my cold heart will rust
I can feel my heart breaking
Just when lying in my bed
Running through today’s mistakes
They’re doing laps in my head
My internal clock ticking
The end is near I feel it
And as each days passes by
I now fear, I don’t fear it

I want this to be over
My mistakes are piled high
I’m standing on the edge
Nothing to stop me this time
I know I should come back
This weights pulling me down
I don’t want to give in
But it’s almost time now

My dreams are getting darker
They’re filled with so much pain
But then I open my eyes
And my life is just the same
I’ve imagined myself bleed
More time than I could count
Cause I feel empty inside
And I need to let it all out
I feel the pressure growing
Just a small cut won’t kill me
But I’ve gone too deep now
The emptiness will fill me

I want this to be over
My mistakes are piled high
I’m standing on the edge
Nothing to stop me this time
I know I should come back
This weights pulling me down
I don’t want to give in
But it’s almost time now

I can’t live like this anymore
With one foot in and out the door
The times come for me to decide
Whether I want to live or hide
It’s a war playing in my mind
I can’t let darkness win this time

I want this to be over
My mistakes are piled high
I’m standing on the edge
Nothing to stop me this time
I know I should come back
This weights pulling me down
I don’t want to give in
I don’t want to die now

Love
Roxanne