Monthly Archives: February 2015

Please Don’t

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I just want it to stop
Kids can be so cruel
I thought they’d like me
But I was just a fool
They wouldn’t talk to me
And I was laughed at
They called me a freak
And not behind my back
I couldn’t take it no more
I was losing control
So I did what I had to
To climb out of this hole

If only someone would say

Please don’t hurt yourself
I need you to fight
Don’t let their darkness
Takeover your light
Please just hold on
It’s not always this hard
It does get better
Don’t let this day be your last

I can’t do this anymore
With internet these days
Not even home is safe
Cause on my screen it stays
They can’t see how it hurts
Not from behind their keyboard
Now I long for those days
Where I was ignored
And it only got worse when
They found out I’m a bleeder
They had friendly advice like
I think you should cut deeper

If only someone would say

Please don’t hurt yourself
I need you to fight
Don’t let their darkness
Takeover your light
Please just hold on
It’s not always this hard
It does get better
Don’t let this day be your last

I’m drowning in a sea of darkness
There’s no escape its endless
As the blood runs down my hand
I promise this won’t happen again

Please don’t hurt yourself
I need you to fight
Don’t let their darkness
Takeover your light
Please just hold on
It’s not always this hard
It does get better
Don’t let this day be your last

Love
Roxanne

I Have To Believe It

About Lyrics,

I’ve Had This Dream is basically exactly what it sounds like. Ever since I was little, I’ve had this dream where I become a singer.

I’ve always written lyrics but I never thought for a second anything would come of it. Now I determined to get my lyrics out there, I’ve decided to create opportunities for myself, To give myself the chance of making a living writing songs, or playing for a crowd of people.

I was always too afraid to pursue this dream, but recently have decided, why not? Even if I don’t end up where I want, going after the thing I want the most, can only mean I’ll end where I’m supposed to be.

I believe everything happens for a reason, even if it isn’t want you think. I believe that I’ve had this dream for a reason. Even if I don’t end up writing songs for a living, or up on stage performing, an opportunity will arise along the way, that’ll be where I’m supposed to be. I have to believe it.

Love
Roxanne

I’ve Had This Dream

Lyrics, ,

I’m up on stage
The crowd is screaming
I love it up here
It feels so freeing
They call out to me
With their hands out reaching
And when the bands starts
The crowd starts singing
I give them my all
To keep them cheering
I need this more
Than the air I’m breathing

There is no better feeling

Ever since I was little
I’ve had this dream
Where I’m in the dark and
Then the lights gleam
The crowd is cheering
Screaming my name
The room is so alive
And it’s energy aflame

There’s a meet up
Outside after my show
The number of fans
Continues to grow
I’d be there for them
Wherever I have to go
Even if it feels like its
Above freezing or below
I give them my time
Even take it slow
Because I love them
And they need to know

I watch as their faces glow

Ever since I was little
I’ve had this dream
Where I’m in the dark and
Then the lights gleam
Connecting with people
Fans liking my songs
Give us both a place
Where we feel we belong

My album just dropped
And it hit number one
I never imagined
This when I had begun
I was just a kid
It was just a bit of fun
But It’s gone beyond
My expectations outdone
And so now today
Is my day in the sun
I fought for this life
And I’ve finally won

Number one at twenty one

Ever since I was little
I’ve had this dream
Where I’m in the dark and
Then the lights gleam
After walking around for
Most of my life unseen
I finally made my mark
On the music scene

It’s awards night
And I’m dressed to the nines
The dress I picked
Changed a million times
Everyone is seated
The starting bell chimes
The show must go on
As everyone dines
They called my name
So I start to rise
And walk to the stage
To collect my prize

This is for you guys

But I looked at my life
And what it was instead
I hated to think
This is all in my head

Ever since I was little
I’ve had this dream
Where I’m in the dark and
Then the lights gleam
But when I wake up
I just want to scream
If only it were real
I’d stop having this dream

Love
Roxanne

Canadian Love

All Things Music, , , ,

I thought would to share with you some of my favourite bands. Well, the Canadian ones at least, because I recently discovered that a lot of my favourite bands are from Canada. Here are the first songs I ever listened to from some of my Favourite Canadian bands.

Three Days Grace is from Ontario and here is their song ‘Are You Ready’. If you think you see Hilary Duff in there, you are not mistaken. I started listening to them after watching Raise Your Voice.

Simple Plan is from Montreal and this is their song ‘Addicted’. This isn’t technically their first song I heard. I first heard the is song ‘Vacation’ and the only copy I could find of that had parts of the movie New York Minute in it. Yes, I found this band while watching a teenage girl movie too, but in my defence, I was a teenage girl.

Marianas Trench is from Vancouver and this is ‘All To Myself’. I really liked this film clip, so I looked up the rest of their songs. I found this one myself. No girly movie required.

So how great is Canada, eh?

I knew that was lame as soon as I said it.

Love
Roxanne

Perfect Mess

About Lyrics, ,

I don’t really know what the idea behind I Love You Anyway came from. I was just sitting at work and thought it would be cool to have a girl say all the reasons she should hate her boyfriend, but she loves him in spite of all that. Then when I was writing it, these lyrics came out. I started writing it more sarcastic, like, I guess I could still love you even though you’re perfect, but then I realised these are some of the reasons I won’t date a guy.

If a guy holds the door open for me, I think he thinks I can’t do it myself and that annoys me. But at the same I like it when guys open doors for girls.

If a guy can’t stand his ground in a fight, it’s like he’s weak, but I like to win arguments.

If a guy looks scruffy, then it like he’s dirty, but if he takes pride in the way he looks, then he’s a tool.

I don’t know if anyone else has these thoughts running through their head when they meet a guy, but they are probably the reason I’m still single. That and I’m like super busy.

But if you know of a guy who’s like a perfect mess, I could maybe find the time.

Jokes.

I’m busy.

Love
Roxanne

I Love You Anyway

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We need to have a talk
And I need to do it today
You might wanna take a seat
Cause I got a lot to say
I hate the way you cut your hair
Always stylish and neat
Or how when we’re in a fight
You end up caving in defeat
And how dare you offer to pay
When we go out to dinner
But some how I still think
I’ve picked a real winner

Cause I love you anyway
Even though you annoy me
Each and everyday
Yeah I love you anyway
I couldn’t get rid of you
Even if I wanted to
Not now you’re under my skin
Just like an ugly tattoo

Why are you always on time
When you know I won’t be
And we always have to cuddle
Just to make you happy
You open doors for me
Like you think I need help
As if that type of thing
Should make my beating heart melt
I hate the way you look at me
And the way you say my name
I hate the way you love me and
That you aren’t playing any game

But I love you anyway
Even though you annoy me
Each and everyday
Yeah I love you anyway
I couldn’t get rid of you
Even if I wanted to
Not now you’re under my skin
Just like an ugly tattoo

You like me best when
I’m in your sweatshirt
You always make me smile
And never treat me like dirt
For these reasons and more
I loved you from the start
The day you bumped into me
You poked my heart

And I love you anyway
Even though you annoy me
Each and everyday
Yeah I love you anyway
I couldn’t get rid of you
Even if I wanted to
Not now you’re under my skin
Just like an ugly tattoo

Love
Roxanne

You Are Not Alone

A Little Piece Of Me, About Lyrics,

Ok so I wrote The Edge only recently and I thought it was important to share. Those words are from my own head. They are my own thoughts. Although I haven’t cut myself, I have imagined it. There are days where I don’t want to fight anymore, where I’m not satisfied with just standing on the metaphorical edge of life, where I feel like I want to just step off. I fight it, but each day it’s getting harder.

I used to fight it on my own, but recently I told my mother I think I might have depression. In my family, it’s not really a surprise. Depression and/or anxiety issues seem to run in the family. At least now someone knows. They can help me, lend me support if I need it. Of course you guys know as well and I think it helps talking to you about it.

I’m not really a therapy person. I wouldn’t know where to start or what to say. Here, I’m just telling you my thoughts on lyrics I’d written and where the idea came from. Where the idea came from for these lyrics, was me. It’s me. My inner thoughts and feelings that I don’t/can’t share.

I’m at a point where I no longer fear the day I can no longer fight. But I still do and if you have any of the same thoughts and feelings I’ve expressed in The Edge or here, than I would ask you to fight too. We can both get through this.

You are not alone. I’m here. I’m here for you, if you need me. All you have to do is ask.

Love
Roxanne

The Edge

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I can’t help that shine in my eyes
The one I always blame on dust
But I won’t let the tears fall
Or else my cold heart will rust
I can feel my heart breaking
Just when lying in my bed
Running through today’s mistakes
They’re doing laps in my head
My internal clock ticking
The end is near I feel it
And as each days passes by
I now fear, I don’t fear it

I want this to be over
My mistakes are piled high
I’m standing on the edge
Nothing to stop me this time
I know I should come back
This weights pulling me down
I don’t want to give in
But it’s almost time now

My dreams are getting darker
They’re filled with so much pain
But then I open my eyes
And my life is just the same
I’ve imagined myself bleed
More time than I could count
Cause I feel empty inside
And I need to let it all out
I feel the pressure growing
Just a small cut won’t kill me
But I’ve gone too deep now
The emptiness will fill me

I want this to be over
My mistakes are piled high
I’m standing on the edge
Nothing to stop me this time
I know I should come back
This weights pulling me down
I don’t want to give in
But it’s almost time now

I can’t live like this anymore
With one foot in and out the door
The times come for me to decide
Whether I want to live or hide
It’s a war playing in my mind
I can’t let darkness win this time

I want this to be over
My mistakes are piled high
I’m standing on the edge
Nothing to stop me this time
I know I should come back
This weights pulling me down
I don’t want to give in
I don’t want to die now

Love
Roxanne

Based On My friend’s Boyfriend

About Lyrics, ,

I wrote Our Song kind of based off my friends boyfriend. I exaggerated him a little to make it funny, but not that much.

He does get mad when she doesn’t say I love you back. He does get mad when she makes plans with us, when we’re just having a girls night. He has started planning their future together, acting like they’re already married. I mean yes they’ve been together for a while, but things can change, they could break up.

It sounds like I don’t like the guy, but he’s also one of my friends. It’s just that sometimes he annoys me. It’s also not that I want them to break up, I just think he needs to tone down the possessiveness a little, or a lot. I don’t know how she handles him sometimes. I know if I was dating him, I would have broken up with years ago.

The point of these lyrics was not to tell you to break up with any guy (or girl) whose possessive over you. Usually it just means they love you. Talk to them. Tell them what bothers you. Then if they still do it and you can’t live with it, maybe you don’t really belong together.

That’s just my opinion. I don’t know what your relationships are like, but I just want you to be happy.

Love
Roxanne