Monthly Archives: March 2015

Love Is

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It was love at first sight
I looked at him and I knew
We’d always be together
And our love would be true
I just haven’t met you yet
We’ll be two parts of one whole
You could show me the world
And I would bear you my soul

But love isn’t always like this
This is just a myth

Love is joy
Love is pain
Love is sticking by them
When they drive you insane
It may not always be good times
But you’ll know you found the one
When your life revolves around them
Like earth revolves around the sun

Today he bought me flowers
Just because he loves me
It had a card that said
I was his honeybee
He treats me like a princess
Buys me lots of diamonds
He even got me a tiara
Maybe next an island

But love isn’t always like this
This is just a myth

Love is joy
Love is pain
Love is sticking by them
When they drive you insane
It may not always be good times
But you’ll know you found the one
When your life revolves around them
Like earth revolves around the sun

He’s always there for me
Like my own man of steel
He lends me his strength
When I just can’t deal
He’s not a bird or a plane
But he’s my superman
So you can call me Lois
Cause I’m his number one fan

But love isn’t always like this
This is just a myth

Love is joy
Love is pain
Love is sticking by them
When they drive you insane
It may not always be good times
But you’ll know you found the one
When your life revolves around them
Like earth revolves around the sun

This myth that love is always perfect
Is the reason it’s so hard to find
Stop searching for a fairytale
And wait for your one of a kind

Love is joy
Love is pain
Love is sticking by them
When they drive you insane
It may not always be good times
But you’ll know you found the one
When your life revolves around them
Like earth revolves around the sun

Love
Roxanne

I Hoped

About Lyrics,

Ok so, I promised myself I’d be honest on here and I want to keep that promise, but first I have to say this. If any relatives of mine are reading this, Mum, Dad, Nan? Please stop. This is not a story for you.

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Turn back now.

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Do not keep reading

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‘The Life That I Lost’ you might have guessed (if you even read it, did you?) is about a time when I had a slight pregnancy scare. I was many weeks late and starting to get worried, so I told my friends. They then thought it would be hilarious to freak me out. They started saying things to make it seem more real, like ‘What do you think it is?’ or ‘What are you going to name it?’

Those type of questions don’t freak me out because I’ve already thought of names and that I want to have a boy first and then a girl. I feel like girls end up more outgoing if they grew up with an older brother, but that could just be because I have an older sister and am not so outgoing.

Then my friends started asking me other, harder questions, ones that take thought. ‘Who gets the baby if you die?’ ‘Will you tell the father?’ (he wasn’t exactly someone I see often *cough* one night stand *cough*) You know, the usual drunken conversations had between friends on a night out.

I should add that I didn’t think I was pregnant, we used protection, but the idea of having a baby suddenly seemed perfect. I started planning everything out. I probably should have just taken a test but I like I said, I didn’t actually think I was pregnant, but after that night I hoped I was.

A few nights later, accompanied by my friends, I took a test, three tests to be more accurate, and they were all negative. I kept hoping I did it wrong, I’d never taken one before being only 19 at the time, so I thought maybe I’m doing this wrong.

But nope. 9 months later, or 7 months since I took the test like 2 months later, and there was no baby shooting out me, no me screaming in pain.

I still have dreams where I’ve had a baby and I’m so happy in the dream. Then I wake up and it hits me that I don’t have a baby. One time I had a dream that I had twins and they were in another room asleep, the I woke up in a panic because I couldn’t hear if they were crying or not. Took me almost a minute to remember.

Don’t get me wrong. I’m glad I wasn’t pregnant. I wasn’t ready to be a mother. I had barely seen and done half the things I’ve seen and done now. There’s so much more I want to do before I have kids. One of those things is to actually be in love and married before I have kids. Or at least in love.

So that’s what ‘The Life That I Lost’ is about. The time I planned out a life that never ended up happening because I wasn’t pregnant.

Love
Roxanne

The Life That I Lost

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I’d been afraid to dream
Afraid to hope.
But I’d begun to plan
And now I can’t cope.
I could see it all
The car seat and the pram
Once I had started
It flowed like a dam

My new life was right there
And I was excited
I didn’t want to hope
But I couldn’t fight it
I could picture it clearly
And look what that cost
Because now it’s all gone
The life that I lost

I didn’t want to
But they made me.
I planned out a future
For me and my baby
It would go to a good school
Have some good friends
With me and the kid
The fun never ends

My new life was right there
And I was excited
I didn’t want to hope
But I couldn’t fight it
I could picture it clearly
And look what that cost
Because now it’s all gone
The life that I lost

It was all right there
A future I wanted.
I could reach out and touch it
But now, by it, I’m haunted.
I can still see it
Even to this day
But it never happened
It was taken away

My new life was right there
And I was excited
I didn’t want to hope
But I couldn’t fight it
I could picture it clearly
And look what that cost
Because now it’s all gone
The life that I lost

There was one thing I needed.
For the life I wanted to live.
But I took the test.
And it was negative.

My new life was right there
And I was excited
I didn’t want to hope
But I couldn’t fight it
I could picture it clearly
And look what that cost
Because now it’s all gone
The life that I lost

Love
Roxanne

My Writing Process

About Lyrics

Seven Shades of Me is kind of like my thought process while writing. I basically lie on my bed and look around my room for things I could whenever I have writers block.

I’ve also been trying to write a song about when I went overseas but I haven’t been able yet. So these lyrics are about me not being able to write what I want to write about. Even with all the awesome things that I’ve done, I still have trouble writing sometime.

I’m going to keep trying though, because I think they’d make for a good song. If could only find a way to do it.

Love
Roxanne

Seven Shades Of Me

Lyrics,

I look around my room what do I see
Posters and a champagne bottle vase
Old records and pictures that I’ve taken
Over the years that have gone past
Lying on my make up stained pillows with
Police tape hanging on the wall behind me
I want to search for the words to write but
I’m trapped by the four walls that define me

Seven shades of me
Can’t be all that I am
I’ve travelled the world
And been back again
When I picture my life
All that I can see
Is pieces of the puzzle
Seven shades of me

I can lie in my bedroom for hours
And write the same words again and again
I can’t put my memories onto paper
So I just waste the ink in my pen
The girl that I was is only part of me
Her story was simple with no shades of gray
But with my new pictures the room is brighter
I just wish I could write about those days

Seven shades of me
Can’t be all that I am
I’ve travelled the world
And been back again
When I picture my life
All that I can see
Is pieces of the puzzle
Seven shades of me

I have added new colour to my old black and white life
But that’s not what I write
The places I have been, the things I have seen
I have travelled the world
But I can’t put it into words

Seven shades of me
Can’t be all that I am
I’ve travelled the world
And been back again
When I picture my life
All that I can see
Is pieces of the puzzle
Seven shades of me

Love
Roxanne

Just Something Fun

About Lyrics, ,

Mrs Robinson is a reference to the film The Graduate and was written about how when I was 16, some of my younger brother’s friends kind of had a crush on me.

I know it sounds egotistical but it’s been tweaked and exaggerated to sound more interesting than it was. They started liking me, nothing happened and then they moved on. So interesting, right?

There’s no deeper meaning to this one. I just wanted to write something fun. Sometimes I do that.

Love
Roxanne

Mrs Robinson

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You were my kid neighbour
Who followed me around
One day you showed up
Just as I was feeling down
We stayed up all night
And you made me smile
You made me forget
Just for a little while
I knew you and your friends
All had a little crush
From the way you watched me
But I don’t understand the fuss

I know you watch the sway of my hips
Like a grandfather clock when it ticks
Cause girls your age don’t look like this
You came to see me everyday
But this is a game I can no longer play
Mrs Robinson is not my name

I don’t know what happened
But one day you grew up
All the young girls liked you
All you had to do was strut
With your blue eyes, blonde hair
You were easy on the eye
But I had a don’t touch rule
Not that you didn’t try
Everyone thinks it’s wrong
And maybe they’re right
I used to baby sit you
But we’ll always have that night

I know you watch the sway of my hips
Like a grandfather clock when it ticks
Cause girls your age don’t look like this
You came to see me everyday
But this is a game I can no longer play
Mrs Robinson is not my name

Now the time has come for me to say
Though it’s been fun I should walk away
I’ll still see you everyday
But over the fence is where you’ll stay

I know you watch the sway of my hips
Like a grandfather clock when it ticks
Cause girls your age don’t look like this
You came to see me everyday
But this is a game I can no longer play
Mrs Robinson is not my name

Love
Roxanne

Standing Up For Who You Are

About Lyrics,

I Can’t Hear You is about standing up for who you are and not being whoever they want you to be. Not wanting to look in a mirror and only see the stranger they turned you into.

‘They’ isn’t someone in particular, it could be anyone. It could be your parents, your boss, your teachers, your “friends”, the media or just the kids at school. It’s anyone who expects you to be someone you’re not and will only accept you that way.

These people shouldn’t have the influence over us that they do and that’s what this is about. Shaking off their influence and being the person you are.

I’m only just figuring out how to do that but it’s a start. I don’t want to look in the mirror and see that self-conscious girl the media turned me into, or the lifeless girl work made me become.

I just want to be the girl that I am. Is that too much to ask?

Love
Roxanne

I Can’t Hear You

Lyrics,

When you look at me what do you see
Do you see a failure
Before I gave up on what you wanted
I only saw a stranger
You thought you could control me
Keep me on a tight leash
In fact you almost made me believe
I can’t have what I want
Everyday you tried to put me down
But you’ll never keep me there
I pushed myself up off the ground
It’s time for you to listen

‘Cos
I can’t hear you
Telling me what to do
I can’t hear you
Telling me how to live
You can scream at me til you’re blue
But I’ll no longer do as you wish

Of course you still had plenty to say
Like how you don’t like my ink
Or the colour I dye my hair
But I don’t care what you think
I won’t let you be referee
In any part of my life
You can try but I’m not gonna play
By these rules you’ve set out
There’ll come a time one day soon
When you will realise
Every time you say I can’t
It makes me want to fight

‘Cos
I can’t hear you
Telling me what to do
I can’t hear you
Telling me how to live
You can scream at me til you’re blue
But I’ll no longer do as you wish

I’m telling you, you have to stop
I won’t listen anymore
You’re gonna need to play nice
Or I’ll be heading for the door

I can’t hear you
Telling me what to do
I can’t hear you
Telling me how to live
I can’t hear you
Telling me what to do
I can’t hear you
Telling me how to live

I can’t hear you
I can’t hear you
I can’t hear you

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I can’t hear you
I can’t hear you
I can’t hear you

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I can’t hear you

Love
Roxanne

Defining Your Own Happiness

About Lyrics,

I’m Not Lonely is kind of my way of saying that yes I am alone and I always have been, but it’s my choice. I’ve had opportunities to change that, but I like my life and the freedom I have in not having to check with someone else if I can go on a holiday with my friends.

I would feel like I was suffocating if I had someone constantly calling me and wanting to talk. Maybe that’s just because I haven’t met someone who I want to be constantly calling me, but still. I like my life as is.

I don’t need a boyfriend, or even have time for one, and I refuse to be one of those girls who makes their whole life about their boyfriend. I want to make my life about me and what I want, while also finding time to spend with family and friends.

That’s what these lyrics are about. Being content that it’s just you and defining your own happiness. That’s what I want to do, that’s how I want to live. Sure when the right guy comes along, I’ll find a way to accommodate him into my life, but I’m not going to leave a hole open, just waiting for him.

Love
Roxanne