Monthly Archives: July 2015

Box Of Dreams

I had begun to dream
You didn’t think I could
It was just out of reach
I tried to prove I would
But reality set in
And it’s slipping away
All while I’m drowning
With each dying day

I’m not special
I can’t do this
I try and I fail
I fail and I miss
From start to finish
You knew the truth
I fail and I miss
This is your proof

It’s too late to start
I left my dreams behind
In the towns I passed
One country at a time
With my home in sight
My life where I left it
I’m losing this fight
Tell me this isn’t it

I’m not special
I can’t do this
I try and I fail
I fail and I miss
From start to finish
You knew the truth
I fail and I miss
This is your proof

Home is where the heart stays
Locked away with my dreams
I’m better off this way
The voice in my head screams
But with nothing else here
I question all I’ve done
Holding onto my fear
Not trying for a home run

I’m not special
I can’t do this
I try and I fail
I fail and I miss
From start to finish
You knew the truth
I fail and I miss
This is your proof

I’m trapped by the fear of my own making
I can’t break through this glass ceiling
Too afraid I’ll be cut by the shards
I can’t break out of this box of feelings

I’m not special
I can’t do this
I try and I fail
I fail and I miss
From start to finish
You knew the truth
I fail and I miss
This is your proof

Love
Roxanne

Traveling With My Friends

Castles was written while I was sitting in the back of a car, my two friends in the front, driving from one side of Ireland to the other. It was a long drive and I get bored easily. There’s only so much to see on a motorway.

I’ve known these girls for ten years, from back when we started high school and this is our second Europe trip together. They say it takes seven years to build a solid friendship but I think that if you can spend four weeks traveling across a continent with only each other to really talk too, and by the end you’re still friends, you’ll be friends for life.

Unless one of you has like a serious change in personality and does something really horrible to another one of you, then maybe things won’t last so long, but like what are the odds?

As we were driving along, we’d go through these small towns and see castles and old houses surrounded by much newer houses and I just thought how cool it looked. But also that it was kinda like me and my friends. The old next to the new, it seems like one should be out of place but they work together.

My friends and I are so different. We don’t even look like we’d be friends. When you see groups of girls walking in the shops, they all dress the same. We have completely different tastes in clothes and guys and even food. But somehow we work. And I think it’s our differences that’ll ensure that our friendship, like the castles, will stand the test of time.

Trust me when I say, there’s no way we’d ever get bored with one another. That’s how I know that one day in the distant future we’ll be sitting in some bar somewhere in the world, maybe with our families, maybe we left them at home. We’ll be talking about our days traveling and what we were like in our youth, before life became serious, and it’ll be just like how it is now. We’ll make jokes no one else gets and laugh too loud at things others don’t find funny.

Cause we’re the three best friends. *said in a sing-song voice*

You won’t get that. But they will.

Love
Roxanne

Castles

Living while still young
We’re waiting on fate
Not even the grey clouds
Can rain on our parade
Travelling in silence
Blaring Fleetwood Mac
We road trip cross country
Me writing in the back

Bonds forged on the playground
Tested on unknown lands
Even after all this time
These old castles still stand
Living tomorrow’s past
History’s on our side
These castles will still stand
Long after we have died

We spent months apart
But nothing’s changed
We’re still as crazy
Still just as strange
Towns passing us by
Old mixed with new
Something’s we’ve borrowed
Something in blue

Bonds forged on the playground
Tested on unknown lands
Even after all this time
These old castles still stand
Living tomorrow’s past
History’s on our side
These castles will still stand
Long after we have died

Years from now
Sitting in some bar
Thinking back on these days
We’ve come so far
Years from now
Something’s have changed
Thinking back on these days
We’re still just as strange

Bonds forged on the playground
Tested on unknown lands
Even after all this time
These old castles still stand
Living tomorrow’s past
History’s on our side
These castles will still stand
Long after we have died

Love
Roxanne

#LoveWins

http://www.theblaze.com/contributions/yes-gay-marriage-hurts-me-personally/

I know this has nothing to do with music but I had to post this.

Please note that I only posted the link as a reference so that you can know what I’m talking about when I point out everything that is wrong about it.

The man behind this piece of writing, Matt Walsh, calls himself a Christian.

I feel someone should remind him of this line from the Bible, turn the other cheek. If someone slaps you on your left cheek, you should give them your right for them to slap. Meaning if something someone does affects you negatively, you should allow them to do it again.

He hates that people say we are not negatively affected by ‘gay marriage’ and yet he’s not turning his other cheek.

He starts off by saying that the people telling him to kill himself for being against ‘gay marriage’, or as I like to call it ‘equal rights’, are being vicious and gloating and not really depicting to whole #LoveWins stance, but he’s neglecting to realise the hate is being thrown at him for, not just being against gay marriage, but, belittling people who are.

He’s says that ‘Christians’ who don’t reject legalizing gay marriage are doing so out of fear. I believe in God, well most days, since these are the people who I’m being thrown in with when I say that, I’m not all that thrilled with the concept of Christianity, and I am proud to say I believe in marriage equality.

He said that people saying gay marriage doesn’t affect him are cowards and that’s it’s self-interest. Is he not a coward for letting his fear of what he ‘believes’ will happen now that gay marriage has been legalised affect him? Is he not only interested in his own idea of marriage that he can’t let two people of the same sex who love each other make their union legal.

He said this would weaken the idea of marriage. Heterosexual marriage has already been weaken and cheapened by people choosing to get married on a whim. Take Kim Kardashians 72 day marriage for example. She was allowed to get married to someone she obviously didn’t truly love, and then end it hours later, how has that not weaken the foundation of marriage?

He said that it was just about letting two people love each other, but it’s more than that. It’s about letting them show the world their love, about giving them that piece of paper that says the other person is theirs. He said there was no moral reason to allow homosexuals to get married, but you are denying them the same rights as everyone else, making them feel as though their love is not as important as yours. Plus it’s mean. Is that immoral enough for you?

He made homosexuals out to be depraved people who just have sex with anyone and anything they want, like they don’t care for monogamous relationships. This so wrong I have no other choice than to believe he has never even met a homosexual person in his life. Two men who are close friends of the family have been in a monogamous relationship for the entire 10 or 11 years I have known them.

Yes, I knew them as a child and manage to grow up straight. It’s a miracle. Hallelujah. *raises sarcasm sign*

He made reference to a lesbian activist who said gay people don’t even want to get married and that they just want to destroy the idea of it. I repeat, A lesbian activist. As one single lesbian doesn’t like the idea of getting married so the rest must have the same belief.

He makes repeated reference to this being a just ploy by the liberals to destroy the idea of marriage and to corrupt the foundation of American civilisation. First off, he’s clearly a conspirator and we should disregard everything he says, but also isn’t that a bit melodramatic. I didn’t realise that heterosexual marriage wrote the constitution. I thought gun laws were the foundation of American civilisation, but then I’m just an Australian and you Americans claim so many things are important to life as you know it.

He claimed that after winning the vote on Friday, that the victors went out gloating and saying vicious bloodthirsty things. All I saw, all over the world was people celebrating the fact that two people of the same sex can now vow to love one another.

The only one saying bad things is Matt Walsh. Are people getting angry at him about that? Yes. Are they retaliating? Yes. Did he deserve it? Some of it yes. Frankly there’s no excuse for wishing someone dead, but then, I believe in forgiveness and being kind to others. You know, those important things that the Bible taught that some people *cough* Matt Walsh *cough* seem to ignore.

His rant turns particularly conspiracy like when he starts saying that the government will start taking money away from the churches, but obviously that will only happen if they disregard the new law stating that two homosexual people can be married. If they break the law then the government can’t continue to pay to keep it open.

He talked about the importance of procreation in a marriage. This here really annoys me. A lot of couples can’t conceive. Are they not married in the eyes of God? God chose to make them that way, how can you act like their marriage is somehow less than yours because they can’t have children. Then there are those who choose not to have kids. Are they not married in the eyes of God?

God made us all right? Then he made gay people. He made them to be attracted to those of the same sex, to love them. He made marriage. Getting married is something you do when you love someone. So then why does it matter what gender they both are?

He said a bunch of other stuff that was also narrow minded and discriminatory but honestly, I already had enough to prove his ignorance.

And, if anyone feels the need to say “it was Adam and Eve, not Adam and Steve.” Adam and Eve walked around naked until they ate the apple. Some ideas in the Bible are obviously out dated.

Sorry for the rant but I just got so angry reading this guys rubbish that I had to write something back or else I be pissed at myself forever.

Love
Roxanne