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About tashajane93@hotmail.com

I love music. All music. I've always written lyrics and poems and things, but now I've decided to start sharing them.

Perfect Mess

I don’t really know what the idea behind I Love You Anyway came from. I was just sitting at work and thought it would be cool to have a girl say all the reasons she should hate her boyfriend, but she loves him in spite of all that. Then when I was writing it, these lyrics came out. I started writing it more sarcastic, like, I guess I could still love you even though you’re perfect, but then I realised these are some of the reasons I won’t date a guy.

If a guy holds the door open for me, I think he thinks I can’t do it myself and that annoys me. But at the same I like it when guys open doors for girls.

If a guy can’t stand his ground in a fight, it’s like he’s weak, but I like to win arguments.

If a guy looks scruffy, then it like he’s dirty, but if he takes pride in the way he looks, then he’s a tool.

I don’t know if anyone else has these thoughts running through their head when they meet a guy, but they are probably the reason I’m still single. That and I’m like super busy.

But if you know of a guy who’s like a perfect mess, I could maybe find the time.

Jokes.

I’m busy.

Love
Roxanne

I Love You Anyway

We need to have a talk
And I need to do it today
You might wanna take a seat
Cause I got a lot to say
I hate the way you cut your hair
Always stylish and neat
Or how when we’re in a fight
You end up caving in defeat
And how dare you offer to pay
When we go out to dinner
But some how I still think
I’ve picked a real winner

Cause I love you anyway
Even though you annoy me
Each and everyday
Yeah I love you anyway
I couldn’t get rid of you
Even if I wanted to
Not now you’re under my skin
Just like an ugly tattoo

Why are you always on time
When you know I won’t be
And we always have to cuddle
Just to make you happy
You open doors for me
Like you think I need help
As if that type of thing
Should make my beating heart melt
I hate the way you look at me
And the way you say my name
I hate the way you love me and
That you aren’t playing any game

But I love you anyway
Even though you annoy me
Each and everyday
Yeah I love you anyway
I couldn’t get rid of you
Even if I wanted to
Not now you’re under my skin
Just like an ugly tattoo

You like me best when
I’m in your sweatshirt
You always make me smile
And never treat me like dirt
For these reasons and more
I loved you from the start
The day you bumped into me
You poked my heart

And I love you anyway
Even though you annoy me
Each and everyday
Yeah I love you anyway
I couldn’t get rid of you
Even if I wanted to
Not now you’re under my skin
Just like an ugly tattoo

Love
Roxanne

You Are Not Alone

Ok so I wrote The Edge only recently and I thought it was important to share. Those words are from my own head. They are my own thoughts. Although I haven’t cut myself, I have imagined it. There are days where I don’t want to fight anymore, where I’m not satisfied with just standing on the metaphorical edge of life, where I feel like I want to just step off. I fight it, but each day it’s getting harder.

I used to fight it on my own, but recently I told my mother I think I might have depression. In my family, it’s not really a surprise. Depression and/or anxiety issues seem to run in the family. At least now someone knows. They can help me, lend me support if I need it. Of course you guys know as well and I think it helps talking to you about it.

I’m not really a therapy person. I wouldn’t know where to start or what to say. Here, I’m just telling you my thoughts on lyrics I’d written and where the idea came from. Where the idea came from for these lyrics, was me. It’s me. My inner thoughts and feelings that I don’t/can’t share.

I’m at a point where I no longer fear the day I can no longer fight. But I still do and if you have any of the same thoughts and feelings I’ve expressed in The Edge or here, than I would ask you to fight too. We can both get through this.

You are not alone. I’m here. I’m here for you, if you need me. All you have to do is ask.

Love
Roxanne

The Edge

I can’t help that shine in my eyes
The one I always blame on dust
But I won’t let the tears fall
Or else my cold heart will rust
I can feel my heart breaking
Just when lying in my bed
Running through today’s mistakes
They’re doing laps in my head
My internal clock ticking
The end is near I feel it
And as each days passes by
I now fear, I don’t fear it

I want this to be over
My mistakes are piled high
I’m standing on the edge
Nothing to stop me this time
I know I should come back
This weights pulling me down
I don’t want to give in
But it’s almost time now

My dreams are getting darker
They’re filled with so much pain
But then I open my eyes
And my life is just the same
I’ve imagined myself bleed
More time than I could count
Cause I feel empty inside
And I need to let it all out
I feel the pressure growing
Just a small cut won’t kill me
But I’ve gone too deep now
The emptiness will fill me

I want this to be over
My mistakes are piled high
I’m standing on the edge
Nothing to stop me this time
I know I should come back
This weights pulling me down
I don’t want to give in
But it’s almost time now

I can’t live like this anymore
With one foot in and out the door
The times come for me to decide
Whether I want to live or hide
It’s a war playing in my mind
I can’t let darkness win this time

I want this to be over
My mistakes are piled high
I’m standing on the edge
Nothing to stop me this time
I know I should come back
This weights pulling me down
I don’t want to give in
I don’t want to die now

Love
Roxanne

Based On My friend’s Boyfriend

I wrote Our Song kind of based off my friends boyfriend. I exaggerated him a little to make it funny, but not that much.

He does get mad when she doesn’t say I love you back. He does get mad when she makes plans with us, when we’re just having a girls night. He has started planning their future together, acting like they’re already married. I mean yes they’ve been together for a while, but things can change, they could break up.

It sounds like I don’t like the guy, but he’s also one of my friends. It’s just that sometimes he annoys me. It’s also not that I want them to break up, I just think he needs to tone down the possessiveness a little, or a lot. I don’t know how she handles him sometimes. I know if I was dating him, I would have broken up with years ago.

The point of these lyrics was not to tell you to break up with any guy (or girl) whose possessive over you. Usually it just means they love you. Talk to them. Tell them what bothers you. Then if they still do it and you can’t live with it, maybe you don’t really belong together.

That’s just my opinion. I don’t know what your relationships are like, but I just want you to be happy.

Love
Roxanne

Our Song

He came over to my place last night
He cooked me my favourite meal
After he said those three little words
He waits for me to say how I feel
When I didn’t say what he wanted
He started following me around
He became like a lost puppy dog
It’s time to take him back to the pound

You were like a moth to a flame
Who got too close and you’re to blame

You’re the melody to my lyrics
But it seems our song has ended
Even though I’m so glad it’s over
I don’t want you to be offended
Last night I said I needed you
And just like magic I am cured
You thought we’d always be together
It seems my tastes have matured

He called me to work out a date
Then he got mad cause I had plans
I told him it was just a girls night
I wanted to spend time with my friends
I don’t know why but he was jealous
He was even starting to turn green
He was so possessive that I said
I need a break can we make it clean

You were like a moth to a flame
Who got too close and you’re to blame

You’re the melody to my lyrics
But it seems our song has ended
Even though I’m so glad it’s over
I don’t want you to be offended
Last night I said I needed you
And just like magic I am cured
You thought we’d always be together
It seems my tastes have matured

I came home from work early one day
I caught him in the act red handed
He was researching our honeymoon
We’re not engaged we barely dated
Enough is enough I threw him out
With him it was just too much too soon
I don’t know when I’ll want a marriage
But I know he won’t be my groom.

You’re the melody to my lyrics
But it seems our song has ended
Even though I’m so glad it’s over
I don’t want you to be offended
Our song is definitely over

Queen

I thought I might talk to you about, what is arguably the greatest band there ever was, Queen. What can one say about Queen? (the band in case you were wondering) Their songs are incredible. They are lyrical geniuses.
Bohemian Rhapsody is a master piece.

Then there’s Freddie Mercury. His connection with the crowd, his vocals, his energy. He draws people in, makes them want to listen.

The clip below is when Queen played at Wembley Stadium 11th of July 1986. They played Radio Ga Ga and he has the entire audience just hanging off his every word.

Let’s not forget the other members of Queen. Brian May, Roger Taylor and John Deacon also played their part. A front man is nothing without his band members. Even after Freddie’s passing Brian May and Roger Taylor went on tour again recently, with the help of Adam Lambert.

I went to their concert and Adam may not be Freddie but he came as close as one could get and put on a great show.

I grew up listening to Queen’s greatest hits album and Bohemian Rhapsody is still a favourite in our house. Whenever it’s on my family and I yell out the lyrics at the top of our lungs. We get out the air guitars and everything.

What can one say about Queen? Only that they are amazing and it’s tragic that Freddie Mercury left us too soon.

Love
Roxanne

A Classic Love Story

I love horror films. All American Psycho is kind of like my own miniature version of a horror movie. Girl meets boy. Girl falls for boy. Boy pretends to be good, hides his true nature. Girl believes boy, until he can’t hide it anymore. Boy kills girl. Classic love story, don’t you think?

This kind of thing hasn’t ever happened to me, I mean obviously since I’m not dead, but it does happen. It’s tragic really, all these girls (or boys) did was fall for the wrong person. Their only fault is being too trusting.

I write about what interests me and because of that, a lot of the time what I write is dark. It’s lyrics like these that I can picture a film clip to go with it. Good looking guy, naive looking girl. The ending, where he kills her, would have to be set at night time. Because apparently, in movie land, no one get killed during the day.

Anyway, I hope you enjoyed it.

Love
Roxanne

All American Psycho

I thought I found the one
I thought you were perfect
But I was wrong
You looked like James Dean
A rebel without a cause
Until you found me
I couldn’t see the hate
That was behind your smile
Until it was too late

You’re just an all American psycho
You pretend everything’s fine
You wear a suit and tie
But it’s all a lie
You’re just an all American psycho
I’ve seen your darks side
The one you tried to hide
Now I’m terrified

Pulling on my heart strings
Just like a puppeteer
That was the beginning
But then you tore me down
Grabbed a hold of my arm
And threw me to the ground
I decided to run
You’re not who I thought you were
Then I saw your gun

You’re just an all American psycho
You pretend everything’s fine
And you wear a suit and tie
But it’s all a lie
You’re just an all American psycho
I’ve seen your darks side
The one you tried to hide
Now I’m terrified

With nothing but a look
You had me on your hook
But in the end
It’s my soul you took

You’re just an all American psycho
You pretend everything’s fine
And you wear a suit and tie
But it’s all a lie
You’re just an all American psycho
I’ve seen your darks side
The one you tried to hide
Until the night I died

My Huge Secret

So I feel like you guys don’t really know anything about me, other than I like music. But then who doesn’t. So I’m going to let you in on a big secret of mine. Are you paying attention? Because this is huge, ginormous even. I like to travel.

Phew! It feels so good to get that weight off my chest.

In the last four years I’ve been to different states in Australia – Queensland, Victoria, South Australia and New South Wales, obviously, since I live there.

I’ve been to both Islands of New Zealand, travelling from the top of the North Island, to the bottom of the South Island.

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I spent some time in Hawaii where I saw a turtle while learning to surf. It was the highlight of my trip.

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Last year I travelled through Europe. I island hopped my way around Greece, with a day in Kusadasi.

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I ate all the Italian food I could in Rome and Venice.

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I celebrated Bastille Day in France with the Parisians.

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I was in London for Prince George’s first Birthday.

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But I’m not done. I want to travel to so many other places. Germany, Amsterdam, Ireland, Scotland, the rest of the United States, Spain, Canada, Fiji and the remaining states of Australia. Oh, and I’ll probably go back to Italy because I just love Italian food.

There, now I feel like we know each other a bit better. If you have any other suggestions as to where I should go, let me know. I want to see everything this world has to offer.

Love
Roxanne