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I love music. All music. I've always written lyrics and poems and things, but now I've decided to start sharing them.

The Dead Kennedys

I thought I might share with you some songs that I listen to that didn’t quite make my favourites list.

Today I chose a song by The Dead Kennedys ‘Holiday in Cambodia’. I like the lyrics. I like songs where the lyrics make you think, they give you a new perspective. This song is about the terrible things Cambodia went through in the 70s under the Dictator Pol Pot.

Musicians have a lot of influence over their audience, I like it when they use that influence to make people more aware of things happening around the world. A lot of songs these days are just a catchy tune with some meaningless lyrics. Not that there’s anything wrong with that, sometimes that’s what the mood calls for, but the songs I remember most are the ones that make me question things, make me change the I think.

That’s what I hope to be able to one day.

Love
Roxanne

Effects Of Social Media

If You Only Knew is about the effects of social media on young girls(and boys). The girl in the song becomes obsessed with a young male celebrity and is desperate to get his attention. Her life is solely about getting a follow from him on twitter. She tweets him pictures to get him to notice her but his other female fans see it and get territorial. These girls are also obsessed with this guy and see this girl as a threat to them getting noticed by their ‘sunshine’. So they bully this girl until she loses all self worth and no longer likes what she sees in the mirror. She’s still obsessed with this guy but where before she was determined to get noticed by him, it was her reason for waking up each day. Now it’s had a negative effect on her. No longer believing she is worthy of this guy and that he won’t ever notice her, there’s no longer a reason for her to get up in the morning. She becomes depressed and with people on social media telling her to go kill herself, she decides to do just that.

This girl became so obsessed that she couldn’t see those who cared about her. She couldn’t see how anyone could care about her after the other girls bullied her.

I decided to write this song after seeing some things being said to and by some of those I follow on twitter. I see girls posting pictures of their ‘sunshine’ or their favourite young male celebrity with the caption “If you need me I’ll be digging my grave”. Whether they are actually serious or not is besides the point. If they’re posting about suicide, then it’s likely they’ve thought about suicide.

Then there’s the hate between the fandoms of different celebrities or bands. I once saw one fandom create a hashtag that said another fandom should cut deeper next time they try to hurt themselves. It’s not right and I felt someone should do something to make people realise that that’s not how we should treat each other.

Telling someone they should go kill themselves, whether you mean it literally or not, is careless. You never know where that person’s head is at when they read it. It may be the thing they need to push them over the edge.

Please be kind to one another.

Love
Roxanne

If You Only Knew

I was drowning in darkness
But now I’m calm
Just relaxing in the bath
The water is warm
The pain in my wrists gone
My blood still flows
Cause I love you so much
You don’t even know
And as the world fades away
My last thought is you
Though you don’t know who I am
That much is true

Why are kids making kids cry
Why are they left out to die
When did we stop teaching them
It’s okay to feel broken
Because it does get better
And soon this won’t matter
There are people who love you
If you only knew

Saw you through the window
That is my screen
You were all I thought about
Even in my dreams
But it’s a one way glass
You don’t see me
Nothing I wouldn’t give
For that not to be
I could break the glass
And there’ll be a way
For you to see through the crack
I have hope one day

Why are kids making kids cry
Why are they left out to die
When did we stop teaching them
It’s okay to feel broken
Because it does get better
And soon this won’t matter
There are people who love you
If you only knew

I took some pictures
And put them online
I thought they looked okay
I thought they were fine
I wanted you to notice
Your fans sure did
They made me want to hide
To go off grid
I tried to get away from
All their abuse
They can be really hurtful
When they let loose

Why are kids making kids cry
Why are they left out to die
When did we stop teaching them
It’s okay to feel broken
Because it does get better
And soon this won’t matter
There are people who love you
If you only knew

I turned to see this girl
Staring back at me
She wasn’t much to look at
Not that I could see
She didn’t have clear skin
But crooked teeth
A nose that’s just too big
That girl was me
I started to believe them
Those things they said
That’s when the darkness
Got in my head

Why are kids making kids cry
Why are they left out to die
When did we stop teaching them
It’s okay to feel broken
Because it does get better
And soon this won’t matter
There are people who love you
If you only knew

I stopped posting pictures
For you to see
Stopped trying to get noticed
You’d never see me
Cause I’m not even worthy
For someone like you
You deserve better than me
I know it’s true
Someone with small nose
A girl who’s pretty
Would look good on your arm
Anyone but me

Why are kids making kids cry
Why are they left out to die
When did we stop teaching them
It’s okay to feel broken
Because it does get better
And soon this won’t matter
There are people who love you
If you only knew

I have a confession
You were my obsession
You deserve perfection
And not my reflection

Why are kids making kids cry
Why are they left out to die
When did we stop teaching them
It’s okay to feel broken
If only you knew
There are people who love you

You Deserve Better

Whispering Pretty Things  is about those guys (and girls) that pretend to care about the girls they’re with. They say all the right things to make you fall for them, to make you think he’s fallen for you, but really he’s just using you.

I don’t like to think that this happens to people. I hope it doesn’t happen to you. But if it does, know that it’s not your fault and you deserve better. You will find a guy who loves you and knows how special you are. I know you’ll find him.

Love
Roxanne

Whispering Pretty Things

You left with your bags packed
With your heart still intact
You said it had been fun
But it’s over now, we’re done
I can’t deal with this anymore
I just keep staring at the door
How could I have been so wrong
You were lying all along

What did you do to me
I was never this girl
Whispering pretty things
You became my whole world
You never loved me
But I still fell for you
Whispering pretty things
Was all you had to do

I tried to get you out of my head
Cause I still feel you in my bed
I thought you were the one
Now I see you with that blonde
This hurts more than I can bear
And you don’t even seem to care
You left my life in tatters
But to you that doesn’t matter

What did you do to me
I was never this girl
Whispering pretty things
You became my whole world
You never loved me
But I still fell for you
Whispering pretty things
Was all you had to do

Before you, I had direction
But not since your rejection
My world now crumbles down
Cause you’re no longer around
Wherever you are right now
I promise,
I’ll get over you somehow

What did you do to me
I was never this girl
Whispering pretty things
You became my whole world
You never loved me
But I still fell for you
Whispering pretty things
Was all you had to do

Why wasn’t I enough
For you to fall in love

Favourite Songs

Okay so I just went through all my songs and I came up with a list of my favourite songs. These are subject to change because well they are all good and I tend to change my mind on a daily basis. So here goes.

1. Nirvana – Smells Like Teen Spirit
2. Queen – Bohemian Rhapsody
3. Three Days Grace – Last To Know
4. Simple Plan – Untitled
5. A Day To Remember – Breathe Hope In Me
6. Nirvana – In Bloom
7. Green Day – American Idiot
8. Metallica – Enter Sandman
9. ACDC – Back In Black
10. The Pretty Reckless – Make Me Wanna Die
11. Blink 182 – All The Small Things
12. Marianas Trench – All To Myself
13. The Sex Pistols – Anarchy In The UK
14. The Offspring – The Noose
15. Slash – Back From Cali feat. Myles Kennedy
16. Weezer – Say It Ain’t So
17. The White Stripes – Seven Nation Army
18. The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus – Your Guardian Angel
19. Foo Fighters – These Days
20. Green Day – Good Riddance (Time Of Your Life)

With a special mention to Don McLean’s American Pie for being the first song I ever learnt all the words to. The short version, not the long one.

Ok, that was tough. I know I only have myself to blame because I set the challenge myself, but still…

Love
Roxanne

Teen Spirit

I know posting the video for Nirvana’s Smells Like Teen Spirit seems a bit cliche but I just got record player for Christmas and have been listening to Nevermind on vinyl. Also I’m learning to play guitar and I just learnt how to play the intro.
But aside from that it’s just a great song. A rock anthem. It’s the song that really got me into music and rock. Kurt Cobain’s voice is unbelievable and the film clip is so filled with teenage rebellion that you’d be hard pressed to find anyone in Gen Y that doesn’t relate to it.
It might be my favourite song ever, but that’s a big call. There are a lot of great songs. I might to think about it and get back to you.

Love
Roxanne

I’m Still There

It’s All Quiet Now is about something that happened to me recently. Well, more like happened adjacent to me. There was a hostage situation in the building I work in. I work on the ground floor and it happened in the cafe across the hall. I wasn’t technically a hostage, although I and the people I was with, couldn’t get out for a few hours. I could see the hostages and there wasn’t much than a bit of glass between me and a man with a gun.

This song is about how, although I escaped, I never really left. I can picture the events of that day like it just happened and it doesn’t exactly help that I still have to work in that building everyday. I made it out and life appears normal and quiet but it will never be the same. While the world moves on, I’m still there. Trying to get out.

Love
Roxanne

It’s All Quiet Now

It started the same
Just a normal day
But now who’s to blame
For the mess they made
There was yelling
We locked our door
There was no telling
If we’d make it out
But with a window
We found a way
We need no hero
To save the day
So down the ladder
To escape the man
We did scatter
Lest we see his gun

It’s all quiet now
But we’re still here
It’s all quiet now
Why do we still fear
When can we leave
Why can’t we escape
It’s all quiet now
What will be our fate

I made it out
But I’m still there
Every shout
Takes me back there
Back to that day
When we were hiding
Finding our way
Trying to break free
I can’t escape it
That day in my head
I try and fake it
But it’s there waiting
Panic starts to rise
Just as the sun sets
Cause I need the light
To fight the nightmares

It’s all quiet now
But we’re still here
It’s all quiet now
Why do we still fear
When can we leave
Why can’t we escape
It’s all quiet now
What will be our fate

Please let us out
You’re safe inside
But if he comes
We can’t hide
Please let us out
You’re safe inside
What if he comes
With his gun

It’s all quiet now
But we’re still here
It’s all quiet now
Why do we still fear
When can we leave
Why can’t we escape
It’s all quiet now
What will be our fate