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I love music. All music. I've always written lyrics and poems and things, but now I've decided to start sharing them.

Traveling With My Friends

Castles was written while I was sitting in the back of a car, my two friends in the front, driving from one side of Ireland to the other. It was a long drive and I get bored easily. There’s only so much to see on a motorway.

I’ve known these girls for ten years, from back when we started high school and this is our second Europe trip together. They say it takes seven years to build a solid friendship but I think that if you can spend four weeks traveling across a continent with only each other to really talk too, and by the end you’re still friends, you’ll be friends for life.

Unless one of you has like a serious change in personality and does something really horrible to another one of you, then maybe things won’t last so long, but like what are the odds?

As we were driving along, we’d go through these small towns and see castles and old houses surrounded by much newer houses and I just thought how cool it looked. But also that it was kinda like me and my friends. The old next to the new, it seems like one should be out of place but they work together.

My friends and I are so different. We don’t even look like we’d be friends. When you see groups of girls walking in the shops, they all dress the same. We have completely different tastes in clothes and guys and even food. But somehow we work. And I think it’s our differences that’ll ensure that our friendship, like the castles, will stand the test of time.

Trust me when I say, there’s no way we’d ever get bored with one another. That’s how I know that one day in the distant future we’ll be sitting in some bar somewhere in the world, maybe with our families, maybe we left them at home. We’ll be talking about our days traveling and what we were like in our youth, before life became serious, and it’ll be just like how it is now. We’ll make jokes no one else gets and laugh too loud at things others don’t find funny.

Cause we’re the three best friends. *said in a sing-song voice*

You won’t get that. But they will.

Love
Roxanne

Castles

Living while still young
We’re waiting on fate
Not even the grey clouds
Can rain on our parade
Travelling in silence
Blaring Fleetwood Mac
We road trip cross country
Me writing in the back

Bonds forged on the playground
Tested on unknown lands
Even after all this time
These old castles still stand
Living tomorrow’s past
History’s on our side
These castles will still stand
Long after we have died

We spent months apart
But nothing’s changed
We’re still as crazy
Still just as strange
Towns passing us by
Old mixed with new
Something’s we’ve borrowed
Something in blue

Bonds forged on the playground
Tested on unknown lands
Even after all this time
These old castles still stand
Living tomorrow’s past
History’s on our side
These castles will still stand
Long after we have died

Years from now
Sitting in some bar
Thinking back on these days
We’ve come so far
Years from now
Something’s have changed
Thinking back on these days
We’re still just as strange

Bonds forged on the playground
Tested on unknown lands
Even after all this time
These old castles still stand
Living tomorrow’s past
History’s on our side
These castles will still stand
Long after we have died

Love
Roxanne

#LoveWins

http://www.theblaze.com/contributions/yes-gay-marriage-hurts-me-personally/

I know this has nothing to do with music but I had to post this.

Please note that I only posted the link as a reference so that you can know what I’m talking about when I point out everything that is wrong about it.

The man behind this piece of writing, Matt Walsh, calls himself a Christian.

I feel someone should remind him of this line from the Bible, turn the other cheek. If someone slaps you on your left cheek, you should give them your right for them to slap. Meaning if something someone does affects you negatively, you should allow them to do it again.

He hates that people say we are not negatively affected by ‘gay marriage’ and yet he’s not turning his other cheek.

He starts off by saying that the people telling him to kill himself for being against ‘gay marriage’, or as I like to call it ‘equal rights’, are being vicious and gloating and not really depicting to whole #LoveWins stance, but he’s neglecting to realise the hate is being thrown at him for, not just being against gay marriage, but, belittling people who are.

He’s says that ‘Christians’ who don’t reject legalizing gay marriage are doing so out of fear. I believe in God, well most days, since these are the people who I’m being thrown in with when I say that, I’m not all that thrilled with the concept of Christianity, and I am proud to say I believe in marriage equality.

He said that people saying gay marriage doesn’t affect him are cowards and that’s it’s self-interest. Is he not a coward for letting his fear of what he ‘believes’ will happen now that gay marriage has been legalised affect him? Is he not only interested in his own idea of marriage that he can’t let two people of the same sex who love each other make their union legal.

He said this would weaken the idea of marriage. Heterosexual marriage has already been weaken and cheapened by people choosing to get married on a whim. Take Kim Kardashians 72 day marriage for example. She was allowed to get married to someone she obviously didn’t truly love, and then end it hours later, how has that not weaken the foundation of marriage?

He said that it was just about letting two people love each other, but it’s more than that. It’s about letting them show the world their love, about giving them that piece of paper that says the other person is theirs. He said there was no moral reason to allow homosexuals to get married, but you are denying them the same rights as everyone else, making them feel as though their love is not as important as yours. Plus it’s mean. Is that immoral enough for you?

He made homosexuals out to be depraved people who just have sex with anyone and anything they want, like they don’t care for monogamous relationships. This so wrong I have no other choice than to believe he has never even met a homosexual person in his life. Two men who are close friends of the family have been in a monogamous relationship for the entire 10 or 11 years I have known them.

Yes, I knew them as a child and manage to grow up straight. It’s a miracle. Hallelujah. *raises sarcasm sign*

He made reference to a lesbian activist who said gay people don’t even want to get married and that they just want to destroy the idea of it. I repeat, A lesbian activist. As one single lesbian doesn’t like the idea of getting married so the rest must have the same belief.

He makes repeated reference to this being a just ploy by the liberals to destroy the idea of marriage and to corrupt the foundation of American civilisation. First off, he’s clearly a conspirator and we should disregard everything he says, but also isn’t that a bit melodramatic. I didn’t realise that heterosexual marriage wrote the constitution. I thought gun laws were the foundation of American civilisation, but then I’m just an Australian and you Americans claim so many things are important to life as you know it.

He claimed that after winning the vote on Friday, that the victors went out gloating and saying vicious bloodthirsty things. All I saw, all over the world was people celebrating the fact that two people of the same sex can now vow to love one another.

The only one saying bad things is Matt Walsh. Are people getting angry at him about that? Yes. Are they retaliating? Yes. Did he deserve it? Some of it yes. Frankly there’s no excuse for wishing someone dead, but then, I believe in forgiveness and being kind to others. You know, those important things that the Bible taught that some people *cough* Matt Walsh *cough* seem to ignore.

His rant turns particularly conspiracy like when he starts saying that the government will start taking money away from the churches, but obviously that will only happen if they disregard the new law stating that two homosexual people can be married. If they break the law then the government can’t continue to pay to keep it open.

He talked about the importance of procreation in a marriage. This here really annoys me. A lot of couples can’t conceive. Are they not married in the eyes of God? God chose to make them that way, how can you act like their marriage is somehow less than yours because they can’t have children. Then there are those who choose not to have kids. Are they not married in the eyes of God?

God made us all right? Then he made gay people. He made them to be attracted to those of the same sex, to love them. He made marriage. Getting married is something you do when you love someone. So then why does it matter what gender they both are?

He said a bunch of other stuff that was also narrow minded and discriminatory but honestly, I already had enough to prove his ignorance.

And, if anyone feels the need to say “it was Adam and Eve, not Adam and Steve.” Adam and Eve walked around naked until they ate the apple. Some ideas in the Bible are obviously out dated.

Sorry for the rant but I just got so angry reading this guys rubbish that I had to write something back or else I be pissed at myself forever.

Love
Roxanne

A Psychotic Girl

Wilhelm Scream took me weeks to write. Usually I can complete a set of lyrics in a day or two if I’m motivated enough (I do wonder if they sound like they’ve been rushed) but these lyrics took me so long because I came out with this chorus and a melody to go with it but I had no idea what the lyrics were supposed to mean.

I usually come up with an idea first then start writing with a line or two as the inspiration but with Wilhelm Scream, I had these lines and I didn’t know exactly what they meant but they were catchy. It took me a while to figure out exactly what I wanted them to say.

But in the end I decided to make it about a girl who can sometimes be really sweet to a guy but then sometimes be a total bitch. Not like girls normally are (hey I’m a girl too, so no offence intended) with their mood swings but more on the psychotic side. Yet this guy sticks around because for some reason he craves the crazy side of her too. He’s so caught up in her drama that he doesn’t realise it’s unhealthy for him.

So in a way they are equal parts perfect for each other and wrong for each other.

Love
Roxanne

P.S. Sorry I haven’t been writing much. I haven’t been that motivated but I’m getting some of that back.

Wilhelm Scream

Light shines through the curtain
Your heart starts beating fast
Each morning I awake
Walking on broken glass
Who will win this tug of war
The beauty or the beast
Both keep you by my side
With your self-imposed leash
The clocks stop as I wake
The time to run has past
With a smile on my face
The beast awakes at last

I’ve got that Wilhelm Scream
That just drives you insane
And the click of my heels
Has you running away
The venom from my lips
Leaves you crying my name
I’ve got that Wilhelm Scream
You don’t try to escape

I’m the girl in your nightmares
The monster in your dreams
And the beat of your heart
Is enough to make me scream
As my patience wears you down
Like a chain round your neck
The bomb in me starts ticking
Just wait til I’m upset
But you come crawling back
Each time I scare you away
I’m the Queen of your heart
I command you to stay

I’ve got that Wilhelm Scream
That just drives you insane
And the click of my heels
Has you running away
The venom from my lips
Leaves you crying my name
I’ve got that Wilhelm Scream
You don’t try to escape

He sleeps with his finger
Resting on the trigger
He sleeps with his finger
Resting on the trigger
He sleeps with his finger
Resting on the trigger
Didn’t your mama teach you
Don’t bite the hand that beats you

I’ve got that Wilhelm Scream
That just drives you insane
And the click of my heels
Has you running away
The venom from my lips
Leaves you crying my name
I’ve got that Wilhelm Scream
You don’t try to escape

Love
Roxanne

Totally Gross

Skin Crawl was written about how there’s this older guy at my work (much older, and quite married), who has a fondness for younger women.

It’s quite creepy and I don’t appreciate it, but like a lot of things, I felt better after writing about it. There’s no like touching or anything, and nothing has been said that’s too inappropriate but still…

It’s mostly exaggerated anyway. I have an active imagination and when I get bored at work (which is always) my brain kind of goes off on a worst case scenario tangent. So he made a comment about something and I made it seem worse than it was for dramatic effect.

I mean he’s still creepy, but has yet to do anything that would be grounds for sexual harassment. Thank God!! He’s totally gross.

Love
Roxanne

Skin Crawl

There I was sitting all alone
When you walk in on the phone
I looked up and caught you staring
Looking at the clothes I’m wearing
It made things really awkward
When did life get so backward
I know you watch me when I walk
And don’t listen when I talk
I know you don’t think I see it
But when you stare at me I feel it

So to you I say this

I’ve had enough of the staring
And calling me a good girl
You’re old enough to be my dad
And it makes my skin crawl
So why don’t you give it a rest
And stick to your own life
Or maybe just go home
Back to your wife

He didn’t listen when I said
Stop picturing me in your bed
It just seemed to make it worse
So when we cross paths I change course
He doesn’t just stare at my legs
He now comments on my dress
In your pocket is that a pistol
It’s not enough to just wolf whistle

So to you I say this

I’ve had enough of the staring
And calling me good girl
You’re old enough to be my dad
And it makes my skin crawl
So why don’t you give it a rest
And stick to your own life
Or maybe just go home
Back to your wife

Did you just wink at me
Please don’t do that
Did you just growl at me
I don’t like that
Did you just touch me
Don’t you dare do that

I’ve had enough of the staring
And calling me good girl
You’re old enough to be my dad
And it makes my skin crawl
So why don’t you give it a rest
And stick to your own life
Or maybe just go home
Back to your wife

Love
Roxanne

Child Like Themes

Simon Says is about a girl who was lured in by a man and taken advantage of. She saw him as happy and friendly and she wanted that too.

Despite the childlike themes, it’s not age specific. Its meant to show her as being innocent, naive. Even the way I explained it in the above paragraph, she’s a girl, not a matured women. He is a man, who is mature and knows what he is doing.

That being said, she could also be a child. I didn’t want to specify that, but lead you to read the lyrics as you interpret them.

She was just an innocent girl who trusted this man, looked to him for guidance, and he betrayed that trust in the worst way. I can imagine being the type of person who would do that, but it happens. Hopefully not to any of you. Or to anyone else.

Love
Roxanne

Simon Says

Her heart starts racing
He starts counting down
She needs to go hide
So she won’t be found
Bit of hide and seek
It’s a game they play
She hears him laughing
He’s headed her way
Running ’round the house
She almost has fun
Now he stands over her
So I guess he won

Game Over

Now it’s time for Simon Says
What Simon wants, Simon gets
Simon says make me your king
Simon says don’t be a tease
Simon says here have a drink
Simon says get on your knees

Life’s a game to him
Nothing’s serious
He looked happy
She was curious
That’s how it started
She heard his laughter
Wanted to play too
She found out after
The games he played
Were dark and twisted
She wanted it to end
So much, she wished it

Now it’s time for Simon Says
What Simon wants, Simon gets
Simon says make me your king
Simon says don’t be a tease
Simon says here have a drink
Simon says get on your knees

He starts counting down
She covers her ears
She knows what comes next
She screams as he nears
Almost at zero
He stands over her
He takes off his belt
The rest is a blur

Now it’s time for Simon Says
What Simon wants, Simon gets
Simon says make me your king
Simon says don’t be a tease
Simon says here have a drink
Simon says get on your knees

Love
Roxanne