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Wanderlust

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So, yesterday I made an impromptu decision to join my friends on their trip to Japan. After clearing with work first of course. Considering I’m going to Canada in less than two weeks and didn’t have enough holiday days to go to Japan for two weeks.

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I cleared it with work and booked my flights and accommodation. I’m going on two overseas holidays this year. It’s just lucky I had enough money saved that I could afford it all. But that’s what my money has always been for. I work so that I can travel.

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I have already visited 15 countries in less that five years, 17 by the end of this year, and my wanderlust doesn’t seem to be fading at all. If anything it’s getting stronger. With each country I visit I want to see more, experience more cultures. Japan had never really been on my list of places to see, until recently, and now I’m super excited about going.

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I like seeing how other people live, what they consider a normal part of their life and comparing it to my own. I now know how small my life really was growing up. I mean, don’t get me wrong, I’m grateful to have grown up in Australia with two loving parents and two siblings. I went to a private school, had decent clothes and went waterskiing on the weekend. I had a pretty good upbringing, but I lived in a bubble.

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I’m starting to learn how big the world really is and it’s changing me. When people I went to school with are getting married and having kids, I just don’t see the point. I used to think having a boyfriend was so important, but it’s not.

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There’s more to life than having some guy buy you dinner. If I found someone to go with me to see the world that might be a different story, but until that day, I won’t settle for anyone who doesn’t see the world as I do or isn’t even open to it.

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I can’t wait to experience more of what life has to offer, or what more I could life about the world and about myself.

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Love
Roxanne

I Will Not Forget

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Paint The Walls was written after the one year anniversary of a day I’ll never forget. The Lindt Cafe siege in Sydney. I was at work about 5 metres away when it started.

I’ve written other lyrics in the months following that day but they were more emotional and I wanted to write something now that a bit more time has passed. Something less about what I felt and more about what happened after.

The amount of people that stopped by afterwards, not to pay their respects, but to take a selfie in front of the building was disgusting. One family tried to get in and see the inside. It was still a crime scene and these parents wanted to take their young children in to see where 2 innocent lives were lost.

And don’t get me started about the media. You should have seen the amount of cameras there were the day of the grand reopening.

I still get angry when I think about the days following 15/12/14. But not everyone was so disrespectful. There were so many flowers that they had to keep finding new places where people could put them.

I used to think about that day everyday. Working so close didn’t really help. I can’t imagine what it’s like for those working in Lindt that day that still work there. But lately I’ve found that I’m thinking about it less and less.

I don’t want to forget about it. I don’t want to forget the lives that were lost and the lives that were changed forever. I feel that if I stop thinking about that day then those lives will be forgotten, like they didn’t mean anything. Like their tragic deaths didn’t mean anything. That would make the events of those 17 hours even more tragic.

I don’t want to forget. I will not forget.

Love
Roxanne

#LoveWins

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http://www.theblaze.com/contributions/yes-gay-marriage-hurts-me-personally/

I know this has nothing to do with music but I had to post this.

Please note that I only posted the link as a reference so that you can know what I’m talking about when I point out everything that is wrong about it.

The man behind this piece of writing, Matt Walsh, calls himself a Christian.

I feel someone should remind him of this line from the Bible, turn the other cheek. If someone slaps you on your left cheek, you should give them your right for them to slap. Meaning if something someone does affects you negatively, you should allow them to do it again.

He hates that people say we are not negatively affected by ‘gay marriage’ and yet he’s not turning his other cheek.

He starts off by saying that the people telling him to kill himself for being against ‘gay marriage’, or as I like to call it ‘equal rights’, are being vicious and gloating and not really depicting to whole #LoveWins stance, but he’s neglecting to realise the hate is being thrown at him for, not just being against gay marriage, but, belittling people who are.

He’s says that ‘Christians’ who don’t reject legalizing gay marriage are doing so out of fear. I believe in God, well most days, since these are the people who I’m being thrown in with when I say that, I’m not all that thrilled with the concept of Christianity, and I am proud to say I believe in marriage equality.

He said that people saying gay marriage doesn’t affect him are cowards and that’s it’s self-interest. Is he not a coward for letting his fear of what he ‘believes’ will happen now that gay marriage has been legalised affect him? Is he not only interested in his own idea of marriage that he can’t let two people of the same sex who love each other make their union legal.

He said this would weaken the idea of marriage. Heterosexual marriage has already been weaken and cheapened by people choosing to get married on a whim. Take Kim Kardashians 72 day marriage for example. She was allowed to get married to someone she obviously didn’t truly love, and then end it hours later, how has that not weaken the foundation of marriage?

He said that it was just about letting two people love each other, but it’s more than that. It’s about letting them show the world their love, about giving them that piece of paper that says the other person is theirs. He said there was no moral reason to allow homosexuals to get married, but you are denying them the same rights as everyone else, making them feel as though their love is not as important as yours. Plus it’s mean. Is that immoral enough for you?

He made homosexuals out to be depraved people who just have sex with anyone and anything they want, like they don’t care for monogamous relationships. This so wrong I have no other choice than to believe he has never even met a homosexual person in his life. Two men who are close friends of the family have been in a monogamous relationship for the entire 10 or 11 years I have known them.

Yes, I knew them as a child and manage to grow up straight. It’s a miracle. Hallelujah. *raises sarcasm sign*

He made reference to a lesbian activist who said gay people don’t even want to get married and that they just want to destroy the idea of it. I repeat, A lesbian activist. As one single lesbian doesn’t like the idea of getting married so the rest must have the same belief.

He makes repeated reference to this being a just ploy by the liberals to destroy the idea of marriage and to corrupt the foundation of American civilisation. First off, he’s clearly a conspirator and we should disregard everything he says, but also isn’t that a bit melodramatic. I didn’t realise that heterosexual marriage wrote the constitution. I thought gun laws were the foundation of American civilisation, but then I’m just an Australian and you Americans claim so many things are important to life as you know it.

He claimed that after winning the vote on Friday, that the victors went out gloating and saying vicious bloodthirsty things. All I saw, all over the world was people celebrating the fact that two people of the same sex can now vow to love one another.

The only one saying bad things is Matt Walsh. Are people getting angry at him about that? Yes. Are they retaliating? Yes. Did he deserve it? Some of it yes. Frankly there’s no excuse for wishing someone dead, but then, I believe in forgiveness and being kind to others. You know, those important things that the Bible taught that some people *cough* Matt Walsh *cough* seem to ignore.

His rant turns particularly conspiracy like when he starts saying that the government will start taking money away from the churches, but obviously that will only happen if they disregard the new law stating that two homosexual people can be married. If they break the law then the government can’t continue to pay to keep it open.

He talked about the importance of procreation in a marriage. This here really annoys me. A lot of couples can’t conceive. Are they not married in the eyes of God? God chose to make them that way, how can you act like their marriage is somehow less than yours because they can’t have children. Then there are those who choose not to have kids. Are they not married in the eyes of God?

God made us all right? Then he made gay people. He made them to be attracted to those of the same sex, to love them. He made marriage. Getting married is something you do when you love someone. So then why does it matter what gender they both are?

He said a bunch of other stuff that was also narrow minded and discriminatory but honestly, I already had enough to prove his ignorance.

And, if anyone feels the need to say “it was Adam and Eve, not Adam and Steve.” Adam and Eve walked around naked until they ate the apple. Some ideas in the Bible are obviously out dated.

Sorry for the rant but I just got so angry reading this guys rubbish that I had to write something back or else I be pissed at myself forever.

Love
Roxanne

You Are Not Alone

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Ok so I wrote The Edge only recently and I thought it was important to share. Those words are from my own head. They are my own thoughts. Although I haven’t cut myself, I have imagined it. There are days where I don’t want to fight anymore, where I’m not satisfied with just standing on the metaphorical edge of life, where I feel like I want to just step off. I fight it, but each day it’s getting harder.

I used to fight it on my own, but recently I told my mother I think I might have depression. In my family, it’s not really a surprise. Depression and/or anxiety issues seem to run in the family. At least now someone knows. They can help me, lend me support if I need it. Of course you guys know as well and I think it helps talking to you about it.

I’m not really a therapy person. I wouldn’t know where to start or what to say. Here, I’m just telling you my thoughts on lyrics I’d written and where the idea came from. Where the idea came from for these lyrics, was me. It’s me. My inner thoughts and feelings that I don’t/can’t share.

I’m at a point where I no longer fear the day I can no longer fight. But I still do and if you have any of the same thoughts and feelings I’ve expressed in The Edge or here, than I would ask you to fight too. We can both get through this.

You are not alone. I’m here. I’m here for you, if you need me. All you have to do is ask.

Love
Roxanne

My Huge Secret

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So I feel like you guys don’t really know anything about me, other than I like music. But then who doesn’t. So I’m going to let you in on a big secret of mine. Are you paying attention? Because this is huge, ginormous even. I like to travel.

Phew! It feels so good to get that weight off my chest.

In the last four years I’ve been to different states in Australia – Queensland, Victoria, South Australia and New South Wales, obviously, since I live there.

I’ve been to both Islands of New Zealand, travelling from the top of the North Island, to the bottom of the South Island.

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I spent some time in Hawaii where I saw a turtle while learning to surf. It was the highlight of my trip.

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Last year I travelled through Europe. I island hopped my way around Greece, with a day in Kusadasi.

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I ate all the Italian food I could in Rome and Venice.

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I celebrated Bastille Day in France with the Parisians.

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I was in London for Prince George’s first Birthday.

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But I’m not done. I want to travel to so many other places. Germany, Amsterdam, Ireland, Scotland, the rest of the United States, Spain, Canada, Fiji and the remaining states of Australia. Oh, and I’ll probably go back to Italy because I just love Italian food.

There, now I feel like we know each other a bit better. If you have any other suggestions as to where I should go, let me know. I want to see everything this world has to offer.

Love
Roxanne