Category Archives: About Lyrics

Hide My Eyes

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Real Me is about pretending to be ok and everyone believing it. But my eyes aren’t as good at hiding my emotions. So I usually hide my eyes. I don’t look people in the eyes as much as I should. I’m afraid they’ll see more than I want them to. I’m afraid I’ll connect with them and I’m not good with making connections.

I have my friends and I don’t want to make any new ones. The ones I have know what to expect from me. They know I won’t be so forth coming with my emotions. That’s all I want and that’s all I need.

So if you ever happen to see me and I don’t look you in the eyes, know that I mean you no disrespect. I am trying to get better though, so maybe I will look you eyes.

Love
Roxanne

My Mask

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Blank Stare is about how I’ve changed into a new person, but I still act the same for the people around me. I used to be this happy kid but I grew up a little different.sometimes I pretend to still be the person, I pretend that I’m ok where I am right now. But I’m getting tired of putting up with things that piss me off.

At my place of work, everyday I’m finding new people who I just can’t stand. I no longer care about doing my job to the best of my ability, I’m just over it. But I need money to pay the bills, pay for my guitar and singing lessons (have I mention I was taking lessons), pay for my living expenses and holidays.

I wear this fake smile pretty much the majority of time I’m at work, just not when I’m with my work friends. I don’t want to do it anymore. I want to do something I enjoy, which is songwriting, but I can’t do that until I’m better at the guitar.

I wrote the lyrics to show that it’s like we are two different people. She’s the old me, the mask I try to keep in place. The lies we tell are when we say we’re fine, or sure I’d love to your stupid job for you. My blank stare is my resting face, or my resting, evil, bitch face as my friends like to call it. It’s the face I have when I’m not trying to be anyone else, not trying to fake some sort of emotion. I generally don’t like to show emotions.

It’s getting harder to keep up the facade.

Love
Roxanne

Sinceriously

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The Day That I Met You is about when you meet someone who you know is bad for you, that you know will only break your heart, but you just have to be with them. Something about them just makes you want to be near them even though you know it will cause you pain. A Bad Boy.

I just realised that this sounds a lot like Taylor Swift’s I Knew You Were Trouble. I guess great songwriters think alike. Just kidding, but I would love to one day be compared to her. She just seems so real.

Now since I’m like eternally single, I haven’t actually been in this situation, but this is what I imagine it would be like. That’s how it is in the movies. I watch a lot of movies. And TV shows. Sinceriously. One time I counted and it was like 50.

Love
Roxanne

P.S Even though I used the word Sinceriously, this is not related to Stephen Amell

P.P.S If you don’t know who Stephen Amell is, you should look him up because he is an awesome human being

The Day I Was Sent To The School Councillor

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Unclear was written when I was in year 9. It’s basically about how I wanted to be done with high school and just skip to the part where I was happily married with a job I loved, and I baby on the way.

I didn’t like not knowing what the future would hold or what I wanted to do in life. But then, I realised, that skipping ahead means you miss all the fun you can have while you’re young and you miss out on a lot of opportunities.

When I wrote this, I pasted it in the front of my school diary, kind of like I do now, except it was a lot less public. My year advisor saw it one day, probably while giving me a detention for not having my hair up, and he found it distressing.

I don’t know why, it’s probably one of the least depressing lyrics I’ve written. After having a chat to me about whether I was ok, he then sent me to see the school councillor. I then had to explain to the councillor that writing helps to let out any emotions I have that are keeping me down.

If only that year advisor could see some of the stuff I write now.

Love
Roxanne

Distorted Ideas

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Love Is is about how these days people have this idea that love is perfect. They seem to think that once you find the one that you’ll never fight and life will great. This is wrong.

Fairy tales and movies has distorted people’s ideas of what being in love is like. It’s not realistic. Even with The One, you will still argue, you will fight. If you go into a relationship and at the first fight you think that that must mean they’re not The One, then no one will ever be The One.

Don’t think that I’m immune to this. I, myself, am guilty of it too. We just have to be aware that just because you fight doesn’t mean you aren’t perfect together, and just because you don’t fight doesn’t mean you are.

Love
Roxanne

I Hoped

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Ok so, I promised myself I’d be honest on here and I want to keep that promise, but first I have to say this. If any relatives of mine are reading this, Mum, Dad, Nan? Please stop. This is not a story for you.

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Turn back now.

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Do not keep reading

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‘The Life That I Lost’ you might have guessed (if you even read it, did you?) is about a time when I had a slight pregnancy scare. I was many weeks late and starting to get worried, so I told my friends. They then thought it would be hilarious to freak me out. They started saying things to make it seem more real, like ‘What do you think it is?’ or ‘What are you going to name it?’

Those type of questions don’t freak me out because I’ve already thought of names and that I want to have a boy first and then a girl. I feel like girls end up more outgoing if they grew up with an older brother, but that could just be because I have an older sister and am not so outgoing.

Then my friends started asking me other, harder questions, ones that take thought. ‘Who gets the baby if you die?’ ‘Will you tell the father?’ (he wasn’t exactly someone I see often *cough* one night stand *cough*) You know, the usual drunken conversations had between friends on a night out.

I should add that I didn’t think I was pregnant, we used protection, but the idea of having a baby suddenly seemed perfect. I started planning everything out. I probably should have just taken a test but I like I said, I didn’t actually think I was pregnant, but after that night I hoped I was.

A few nights later, accompanied by my friends, I took a test, three tests to be more accurate, and they were all negative. I kept hoping I did it wrong, I’d never taken one before being only 19 at the time, so I thought maybe I’m doing this wrong.

But nope. 9 months later, or 7 months since I took the test like 2 months later, and there was no baby shooting out me, no me screaming in pain.

I still have dreams where I’ve had a baby and I’m so happy in the dream. Then I wake up and it hits me that I don’t have a baby. One time I had a dream that I had twins and they were in another room asleep, the I woke up in a panic because I couldn’t hear if they were crying or not. Took me almost a minute to remember.

Don’t get me wrong. I’m glad I wasn’t pregnant. I wasn’t ready to be a mother. I had barely seen and done half the things I’ve seen and done now. There’s so much more I want to do before I have kids. One of those things is to actually be in love and married before I have kids. Or at least in love.

So that’s what ‘The Life That I Lost’ is about. The time I planned out a life that never ended up happening because I wasn’t pregnant.

Love
Roxanne

My Writing Process

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Seven Shades of Me is kind of like my thought process while writing. I basically lie on my bed and look around my room for things I could whenever I have writers block.

I’ve also been trying to write a song about when I went overseas but I haven’t been able yet. So these lyrics are about me not being able to write what I want to write about. Even with all the awesome things that I’ve done, I still have trouble writing sometime.

I’m going to keep trying though, because I think they’d make for a good song. If could only find a way to do it.

Love
Roxanne

Just Something Fun

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Mrs Robinson is a reference to the film The Graduate and was written about how when I was 16, some of my younger brother’s friends kind of had a crush on me.

I know it sounds egotistical but it’s been tweaked and exaggerated to sound more interesting than it was. They started liking me, nothing happened and then they moved on. So interesting, right?

There’s no deeper meaning to this one. I just wanted to write something fun. Sometimes I do that.

Love
Roxanne

Standing Up For Who You Are

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I Can’t Hear You is about standing up for who you are and not being whoever they want you to be. Not wanting to look in a mirror and only see the stranger they turned you into.

‘They’ isn’t someone in particular, it could be anyone. It could be your parents, your boss, your teachers, your “friends”, the media or just the kids at school. It’s anyone who expects you to be someone you’re not and will only accept you that way.

These people shouldn’t have the influence over us that they do and that’s what this is about. Shaking off their influence and being the person you are.

I’m only just figuring out how to do that but it’s a start. I don’t want to look in the mirror and see that self-conscious girl the media turned me into, or the lifeless girl work made me become.

I just want to be the girl that I am. Is that too much to ask?

Love
Roxanne

Defining Your Own Happiness

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I’m Not Lonely is kind of my way of saying that yes I am alone and I always have been, but it’s my choice. I’ve had opportunities to change that, but I like my life and the freedom I have in not having to check with someone else if I can go on a holiday with my friends.

I would feel like I was suffocating if I had someone constantly calling me and wanting to talk. Maybe that’s just because I haven’t met someone who I want to be constantly calling me, but still. I like my life as is.

I don’t need a boyfriend, or even have time for one, and I refuse to be one of those girls who makes their whole life about their boyfriend. I want to make my life about me and what I want, while also finding time to spend with family and friends.

That’s what these lyrics are about. Being content that it’s just you and defining your own happiness. That’s what I want to do, that’s how I want to live. Sure when the right guy comes along, I’ll find a way to accommodate him into my life, but I’m not going to leave a hole open, just waiting for him.

Love
Roxanne