Ripped Away

Every Breath is about a guy who was face to face with a man with a gun. The lyrics go on to say that he escapes and decides to live his life better. To settle down, get married and have kids or to travel the world. He wasn’t going to live the same as it was before. He wanted to live his life like it was one worth living. But then, in the end he didn’t survive his meeting with the man with the gun. The life and the choices he could have made, was ripped away from him with one unfortunate encounter with this gunman.

This one was also written after the situation I wrote about in I’m Still There which is  about It’s All Quiet Now. It makes reference to one of the hostages experience but it’s not directly about them. The people who died in this situation had their lives taken from them. They had all these things going for them and the things they might have achieved after all this, might have been great. Those who survived now have the chance to choose to use this unfortunate tragedy as motivation, make them start truly living, because they must have lived for a reason.

This thing that happened to me, though not directly, has been on my mind a lot lately because I’ve just started back at work for the year and I have to see the site every day. I still have people asking me about that day and people taking photos outside my work everyday. Writing about it has helped organise my thoughts and feelings. So if you ever have anything that you can’t deal with you should try writing about it. Even if you can’t write lyrics or poems, just writing about what happened or how you feel about it might help you.

If you feel like you have no one to talk to, although I’m sure you do, you can talk to me. I may not have been through what you have but I’ll always listen.

Love
Roxanne

Every Breath

You went to work as usual
But that’s when he ran inside
He was holding a pistol
And it ended in a fight
You walked out of the room
With your head held sky high
You escaped your tomb
And you’re not gonna ask why
You have the rest of your life
To live the way you want to
Maybe find yourself a wife
And have a kid or two

You protect the ones you love
No matter the cost to you
You’ve gone beyond and above
It what you always do
With your past set in stone
Now your new life begins
So it’s time to move on
See what this new life brings

When the nightmare was over
You just felt so lucky
Like a four leafed clover
You wanted to be happy
You made a deal with yourself
What you’d do if you got out
Only drink from the top shelf
Find out what life is about
Settle down, travel the world
You could be who you wanted
Or just meet a nice girl
You wouldn’t be haunted

You protect the ones you love
No matter the cost to you
You’ve gone beyond and above
It what you always do
With your past set in stone
Now your new life begins
So it’s time to move on
See what this new life brings

Every step you take
Every breath you breathe
It’s too little too late
It’s the life you didn’t live
Cause you never made it out
You never did get to leave

He protected those he loved
No matter the cost to him
He went beyond and above
It’s what he always did
With his past set in stone
Now his new life begins
So it’s time to move on
See what this new life brings

Window To Your Soul

Your Eyes is about a girl whose boyfriend goes away on tour and she says it’s fine but then the distance starts to wear on the relationship. She still loves him but wonders if he still loves her. Then the tour ends, he comes home and he still looks at her as if she’s the most important person in the world. She can by looking in his eyes that he still loves her.

They say the eyes are the window to the soul and that’s kinda the idea behind these lyrics. Most of a persons thoughts and feelings are shown through that facial features and talking on the phone can only do so much to make a person feel secure in their relationship.

In the end she decides to go on tour with him next time because she doesn’t want to be a part from for so long again. She’s happiest with him.

None of this happened to me, I just thought the story was nice.
A work of pure fiction.

Love
Roxanne

Your Eyes

I’m on my way home
But you won’t be there
You’ve been gone so long
And I don’t know where
You said you had to leave
Take this show on the road
I said we’d be fine
That he should just go
But I wish for those days
We used to talk all night
Now when we’re on the phone
We can only fight

I miss seeing you face
Knowing you love me
It’s all in your eyes
I’m all that you see
There was always a spark
That soon was a flame
It’s all in your eyes
Please let that be the same

I’m counting down the days
Til I’m beside you
Don’t know how we did it
But we made it through
I’ve looked at pictures
Of you everyday
But soon you’ll be home
And that’s where you’ll stay
So next time you leave
It won’t be like this
I’ll be by your side ‘cos
Home is where your heart is

I miss seeing you face
Knowing you love me
It’s all in your eyes
I’m all that you see
There was always a spark
That soon was a flame
It’s all in your eyes
Please let that be the same

Waiting at the airport
For your plane to lead
I can’t wait to see your face
And to just hold your hand
I see you in the crowd
I’ve become afraid
But the look is your eyes
Says nothing’s changed

I missed seeing you
Knowing you love me
It’s all in your eyes
I’m all that you see
There was always a spark
That soon was a flame
It’s all in your eyes
That will never change

I’m Okay

Get Out Of My Head is about someone who has witnessed people being murdered and now he feels guilty. That guilt has manifested itself as voices in his head, telling him to take his own life to atone for not helping to save their life.

I wrote it kind of disjointed like their mind was scattered and not making sense to, show that they might have been losing their mind a bit. That it was all in their head.

I wrote it as I was feeling similarly scattered. Not out of guilt, or maybe it was, maybe I was projecting and I do feel guilty. I mentioned in my earlier post, I’m Still There that I went through something recently and while for the most part I’m fine, sometimes something brings it all back. It’s during those moments when I’m not fine and writing about is the only way I know how to get through it.

It feels weird to sharing all this, but I made a promise with myself to be completely honest. Although with nobody actually reading my posts yet it’s kind of like spilling all my secrets to a brick wall.

Love
Roxanne

Get Out Of My Head

I’m trying to hide
Don’t let them find me
What was that noise
What’s the dark hiding
I feel them staring
That voice in my head
Telling me to come
Why won’t they stay dead

No I don’t want to
Please don’t make me
No I won’t do it
You won’t break me
Just leave me alone
Get out of my head
It wasn’t my fault
Why do I see red

I see their body
Wherever I go
Now I hear their voice
Almost like they know
I was their that day
But it wasn’t me
I couldn’t stop him
I still hear their plea

No I don’t want to
Please don’t make me
No I won’t do it
You won’t break me
Just leave me alone
Get out of my head
It wasn’t my fault
Why do I see red

Tears fall down my face
No what have I done
You got in my head
And now you’ve won
How did you do it
I’ll be with you soon
I wish you’d stay dead
Which way to my tomb

No I don’t want to
Please don’t make me
No I won’t do it
You won’t break me
Just leave me alone
Get out of my head
It wasn’t my fault
But now I’m dead

Dave Grohl

Since it is Dave Grohl’s birthday soon. Well today in Australia. I thought I would do a post dedicated to him. Just in case there is anyone out there who doesn’t know who he is, he is lead singer and guitarist of a band called Foo Fighters. He started the band in the mid nighties after the lead singer of his previous band, in which he played the drums, committed suicide. That band was called Nirvana. The lead singer, Kurt Cobain.

Dave turned 46 on January 14 and here is a video of how he celebrated his birthday this year.

As I said earlier, Dave was the drummer for Nirvana. He wasn’t the first but he, in my opinion, the best. He also plays drums in a number of other bands, including ones that he formed, as way of preventing from getting bored with the Foo Fighters.
And he’s amazing at it.

Here is a video of him playing the drums in 1988 at 19 years old with a band called Scream.

He is a proud dad. Here is a video of him being interviewed by Ellen DeGeneres about being a parent.

Dave is an all round nice guy who looks after his fans at concerts.

He saved a kid from crushed between the crowd and the security fence at the front during a Them Crooked Vultures concert. Then he let the kid and his watch from the side of stage.

He broke up a fight that started in the crowd at a Foo Fighters concert. Worried about the safety of his fans and probably slightly annoyed that this guy wasn’t just enjoying the music like everybody else, he made the guy leave. Warning there is a bit of swearing.

He is an amazing front man. His connection with the fans is obvious in this video of when Foo Fighters played at Wembley Stadium June 2008. He swears a little in this one too but I means, it’s rock and roll.

Dave Grohl is a real, true musician and is such a nice guy, that he deserves all the years he has had success and many more.

Happy Birthday Dave Grohl.

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Love
Roxanne

Grieving Hearts

The night is darkest
Just before the dawn
With life at its bleakest
A new love is born

Grieving hearts
Loving pasts
Both living apart
From a love that lasts

Now here you stand
Side by side
Hand in hand
A great love so wide

This isn’t technically song lyrics that I wrote, but it’s what got me started writing again. I stopped for about 3 years because I had no inspiration, no reason to write, but in September, my grandmother got married again after my grandfather died. She kept it small and didn’t invite anyone but those who lived locally, but asked people to write things to be read out at the ceremony. She asked me to write something and it took me a while because it had been a long time since I had even tried to write. But in the end I came up with this.

Everyone said it was good and then next thing I knew I was writing again and more than I had before. It got me started on this path, now I’m learning guitar and taking singing lessons to strengthen my voice. Now I feel like myself again. So…. thanks Nan for getting married.

Moral of the story, follow your dreams because they will lead you to where you’re supposed to be.

Love
Roxanne

Hope For A Brighter Future

Broken Inside is about a girl who is feeling down about her life. She has been strong and kept it hidden for so long but it was becoming too much. She almost gave up but decided to give living another go.

Admittedly it’s not one of my best but I used write quite dark endings and so I like that she doesn’t give in to her sadness that was threatening to overcome her. She has hope for a brighter future and I guess, since I wrote it, it means I have hope for a brighter future.

The night is darkest just before the dawn.

Love
Roxanne

Broken Inside

She sits at home
She’s all alone
She wonders why
She’s not on the phone
Her friends don’t call
No not at all
As she wonders why
Tears start to fall

But she won’t complain
Won’t let anyone
know she’s in pain

She tries to hide
That she’s broken inside
Hoping no one will notice
It’s a losing fight
She doesn’t know
How to let it go
Her demons inside
Will stop her blood flow

She’s doing her best
But life’s a test
It’s at a point
Where she needs a rest
When things go wrong
She tries to be strong
But it’s just too hard
To fight for so long

But she won’t complain
Won’t let anyone
know she’s in pain

She tries to hide
That she’s broken inside
Hoping no one will notice
It’s a losing fight
She doesn’t know
How to let it go
Her demons inside
Will stop her blood flow

Go into the sun
Go have some fun
A mere suggestion
In the end light won
She decided to try
To go outside
Into a world
That left her dead inside

She tries to hide
That she’s broken inside
Hoping no one will notice
It’s a losing fight
She doesn’t know
How to let it go
Her demons inside
Might stop her blood flow