Irrelevant

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I took a leap of faith
And you let me fall
I asked you for help
And you did nothing at all
You can throw out all the excuses
You didn’t know what I meant
But the truth I know deep down
Is that I am irrelevant

How could you just leave me to die
Every night I wonder every night I cry
But don’t worry I’ll be just fine
Every day I say it everyday it’s a lie

When you came to me when you tried to help
It was just too little too late
I can’t open up and let you in
The damage was done the scars were made
And all the wine can’t fix us now
If that’s even what you meant
Cause the truth I now deep down inside
Is that I am irrelevant

How could you just leave me to die
Every night I wonder every night I cry
But don’t worry I’ll be just fine
Every day I say it everyday it’s a lie

A little me would sit in my room
Just waiting to hear from you
I’d scream until I’m blue
But it’d never get to you
A little me would sit in my room
I’d scream until I’m blue
Just waiting to hear from you
And now where are you

How could you just leave me to die
Every night I wonder every night I cry
But don’t worry I’ll be just fine
Every day I say it everyday it’s a lie

That Moment

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The club is so hot I’m sweating through my dress
And the musics too loud it’s beating in my chest
Singing and swaying to the songs that we hear
Nothing else matters as we cheer
Then the lights come on and closing time starts to play
I always knew tonight was going to end this way
In the Uber ride home my head starts to clear
That moment has come that moment I fear

And as soon as I’m through the front door
I am all alone once more
And no matter how happy I think I am
It all comes crashing down again
There’s no more audience no need for a show
Only the bad thoughts that no one can know

Champagne on ice dressed to the nines
The rounds keep coming all night
And as we pub crawl down the street
We wake people from their sleep
Singing and dancing and slurring our words
Ours the only voices that can be heard
But then someone decides to call it a night
And I feel the silence reach out and grip me tight

As soon as I’m through the front door
I am all alone once more
And no matter how happy I think I am
It all comes crashing down again
There’s no more audience no need for a show
Only the bad thoughts that no one can know

My walls are down I am defenceless
That voice so loud leaving me senseless
You’re all alone because they all hate you
You cannot be loved no one will date you
Sooner or later the voice is gone
It fades away at the brink of dawn
But the scars made can’t be fixed with a smile
It just holds it at bay for a little while

As soon as I’m through the front door
I am all alone once more
No matter how happy I think I am
It all comes crashing down again
There’s no more audience no need for a show
Only those thoughts that no one can know

Little Girl

All Things Music

There once was a little girl
Who knew what she wanted from the world
Her heart was open with nothing but hope
Hands full of the future she held
What happened to all that drive
To the fight you had inside
For everything you ever wanted
When did you feel it die

Get off your ass
Get out of bed
You need to pick yourself up
You need to get out of your own head
There’s no point in tomorrow
If you give up today
So pull yourself out of it
And get on your own way

What will your future hold
If your heart is dead and cold
How do you get up each day
Without that fight in your soul
You won’t get what you want by standing still
You won’t live you dream if you don’t climb that hill
Nothing changes if you stay the same
And there’s always a way so just find the will

Get off your ass
Get out of bed
You need to pick yourself up
You need to get out of your own head
There’s no point in tomorrow
If you give up today
So pull yourself out of it
And get out of your own way

You can hide all you like
But time will pass you by
Til you’re old and grey
And never lived a day in your life
But the girl you buried inside
She’s going the wither and die
If you don’t stop just waiting
If you don’t start to fight

Get off your ass
Get out of bed
You need to pick yourself up
You need to get out of your own head
There’s no point in tomorrow
If you give up today
So pull yourself out of it
And get out of your own way

September 25 2018

All Things Music, Lyrics

I can’t open my eyes
Can’t remember his name
Where am I?
Am I to blame?
Dazed and confused
The words stuck in my mind
With quiet acceptance
All I want to do is hide.

My head is spinning
My phone in my hand
Following the bread crumbs
This didn’t go as planned.
The night was still young
But now it’s long gone
And this is all I remember
Prague’s cold at dawn.

It wasn’t my choice
Screaming on the inside
You swallowed my voice
How did I get here.
If I could remember
I’d want to forget
To start this September
All over again.

My head is spinning
My phone in my hand
Following the bread crumbs
This didn’t go as planned.
The night was still young
But now it’s long gone
And this is all I remember
Prague’s cold at dawn.

My memories were gone
They washed away
With my child like hope
I’ll remember this day.
There’s distance between us
To keep her at bay
To keep me from breaking
I’ll remember this day.

My head is spinning
My phone in my hand
Following the bread crumbs
This didn’t go as planned.
The night was still young
But now it’s long gone
And this is all I remember
Prague’s cold at dawn.

Alone

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I’m screaming, why can’t you see
I’m hurting, won’t you help me
You’ll bend over backward for everyone else
Do I even come close
There’s this perfect girl you want me to be
Do you know she isn’t me

All alone in my room
You know what to do
I’m crying
Why’d you leave me alone
When you should have known
I’m dying

I’m breathing, why’s it so hard
I’m screaming, will the healing start
Every smile starts to feel like a lie
Do you believe I’m fine
One day I’ll leave and you’ll never see me again
How will it end

All alone in my room
You know what to do
I’m crying
Why’d you leave me alone
When you should have known
I’m dying

I’m trying, I’m crying, I’m hurting, I’m dying
I’m trying, I’m crying, I’m hurting, I’m dying
I’m trying, I’m crying, I’m hurting, I’m dying
No more trying, no more crying, I’m dying

All alone in my room
You know what to do
I’m crying
Why’d you leave me alone
When you should have known
I’m dying

Love
Roxanne

Little Secret

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There’s a voice in my head
And it tells me bad things
I can’t repeat what it said
I’m a puppet on its strings
But I pray for wings
After its come and gone
All that’s left is a scar
And only I mourn
So sit back and laugh
At the girl with the broken heart

It’s our little secret
We can’t all be perfect
Filled with shame and regret
Is this as dark as it gets
It’s our little secret
We’re all a bloody mess
One you wish to forget
Is this as dark as it gets

I used to think it was my fault
That I was not good enough
It turned me cold
Like a don’t give a fuck
But it was all too much
I’m drowning in it
Why can’t you see
I’ve been through some shit
And I’m fighting to breathe
Where have you been

It’s our little secret
We can’t all be perfect
Filled with shame and regret
Is this as dark as it gets
It’s our little secret
We’re all a bloody mess
One you wish to forget
Is this as dark as it gets

I opened myself up
To a drunken mess
And either you forgot
Or you tried your best
I’m spiralling down
Now watch me bleed
I’m empty now
Why can’t you see me
Maybe you were better off
Without me

It’s our little secret
We can’t all be perfect
Filled with shame and regret
Is this as dark as it gets
It’s our little secret
We’re all a bloody mess
One you wish to forget
Is this as dark as it gets

Love
Roxanne

Chase It

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I’m sitting and thinking and going insane
I’m stuck in limbo and everyday is the same
I’m trying and fighting to breathe through each day
But this life ain’t living things need to change
When hoping and praying just isn’t enough
You need to got out swinging you need to get tough

You can hide behind your dreams all day
But don’t day dream your days away

Life doesn’t happen unless you make it
And you won’t be happy if you fake it
When you want something you need to chase it
And once you have it, don’t forsake it

I’m looking and searching for something to do
I need to get out and see something new
Chilling and waiting for good things to come to you
Won’t make dreams come to life, won’t make them come true
When I’m screaming and crying from all the rejection
I’ll know I lived life so full, to perfection

You can hide behind your dreams all day
But don’t day dream your days away

Life doesn’t happen unless you make it
And you won’t be happy if you fake it
When you want something you need to chase it
And once you have it, don’t forsake it

When life gets you down you gotta get back up
Keep going, going, going, going, going.
When you’re on the path but you get stuck
Keep going, going, going, going, going.
When you stop trying, hoping for a little luck
Keep going, going, going, going, going.
When life gets you down you gotta get back up
And keep going.

You can hide behind your dreams all day
But don’t day dream your days away

Life doesn’t happen unless you make it
And you won’t be happy if you fake it
When you want something you need to chase it
And once you have it, don’t forsake it

Love
Roxanne

Empty Mind

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An empty mind
And a cold heart
Still I don’t stop
‘Til the bleeding starts
The moments gone
And I remain
What does this mean
Am I insane

The music’ s stopped
It’s quiet now
Too much goes on
Can’t keep it down
The night is dark
And dawn is near
What happens next
Is my worst fear

No more running
Can’t hide from this
The prof is there
With a red twist
Where it comes from
I couldn’t say
And when it goes
It fades away

The music’ s stopped
It’s quiet now
Too much goes on
Can’t keep it down
The night is dark
And dawn is near
What happens next
Is my worst fear

It’s getting colder
I can’t let go
It’s getting closer
Where can I go
It’s getting colder
I hope you know
I’m getting closer
Time to let go

The music’ s stopped
It’s quiet now
Too much goes on
Can’t keep it down
The night is dark
And dawn is near
What happens next
Is my worst fear

Love
Roxanne

Unicorns Are Real

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It was love at first sight
I knew he was the one
He was my best friend
And we always had fun
There’s butterflies in my stomach
He makes my heart beat faster
If you think this is real
Then you need to be smarter

Love like this
It doesn’t exist
It’s a fairytale
Like making a wish
If unicorns are real
And rainbows have a pot of gold
Maybe then I’ll believe in magic
But right now I’m far from sold

I want to Netflix and chill with
Someone on cold rainy days
If I ask you if you love me
And you come back with always
Someone to make jokes to see you laugh
To hug you when you’re sad
If this is what love is like
I guess it wouldn’t be so bad

Love like this
It doesn’t exist
It’s a fairytale
Like making a wish
If unicorns are real
And rainbows have a pot of gold
Maybe then I’ll believe in magic
But right now I just wanna be sold

Unicorns are real
I believe in magic
Unicorns are real
I wish for a love like this
Unicorns are real
I believe in magic
Unicorns are real
I wish for a love like this

Love like this
It doesn’t exist
It’s a fairytale
Like making a wish
If unicorns are real
And rainbows have a pot of gold
Maybe then I’ll believe in magic
And right now I believe I’m sold

Love
Roxanne

Small Town

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You’re always talking
How we need to do more things together
But what’s the rush when you have forever
And when you say
No to all my ideas
Saying we have years and years
I can’t stay

My passports by my bed side
You let yours go out of date
You always say you’re busy
But you’re not worth the wait
Flights booked my bags packed
I just can’t help but smile
Sorry Mr Small Town guy
You won’t see my for a while

I can’t be that girl
The one that stays home when you’re always out
That’s not what life should be about
And I won’t wait
For you to change your mind
Don’t think I won’t leave you behind
It’s too late

My passports by my bed side
You let yours go out of date
You always say you’re busy
But you’re not worth the wait
Flights booked my bags packed
I just can’t help but smile
Sorry Mr Small Town guy
You won’t see my for a while

Got my head in the clouds
On my way somewhere new
I’m not going to go there
With someone like you
If you’re not on board this flight
Then you’re just not worth the fight
Excuses, excuses
If you’d rather climb the corporate ladder
Than the highest mountains does it even matter
To fight is useless

My passports by my bed side
You let yours go out of date
You always say you’re busy
But you’re not worth the wait
Flights booked my bags packed
I just can’t help but smile
Sorry Mr Small Town guy
You won’t see my for a while

Love
Roxanne