Tag Archives: Life and Death

Paint The Walls

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The bar wasn’t opened but I needed a drink
So much had happened I could hardly think
I was barely through the door when I was embraced
Back then not even I knew the things I faced
Defined by a day buried deep in my head
Old tears weren’t drying before new ones were shed
We saw not only the flowers and kind words
There were cameras rolling they came in herds

With the threat of a bomb hanging over your head
Walking down the street like it’s dawn of the dead
How does it feel to know that while others bled
You were at home dreaming safely in bed
With the threat of a bomb hanging over your head
Walking down the street like it’s dawn of the dead
When he stayed up late to paint the walls red
You were at home dreaming safely in bed

I witnessed the worst of human reactions
Like it was just another tourist distraction
People had questions and things to be said
But I had the answers programmed in my head
Daily reminders reawaken my fear
Those from the past always present and near
One day I’ll move forward next I’ll fall behind
And some days I hoped I’d never be fine

With the threat of a bomb hanging over your head
Walking down the street like it’s dawn of the dead
How does it feel to know that while others bled
You were at home dreaming safely in bed
With the threat of a bomb hanging over your head
Walking down the street like it’s dawn of the dead
When he stayed up late to paint the walls red
You were at home dreaming safely in bed

(He stayed up late to paint the walls red)
And gave my voice a story to tell
(He stayed up late to paint the walls red)
And every night more tears fell
(He stayed up late to paint the walls red)
Can you hear the sound of the church bells
(He stayed up late to paint the walls red)
And gave my voice a story to tell

With the threat of a bomb hanging over your head
Walking down the street like it’s dawn of the dead
How does it feel to know that while others bled
You were at home dreaming safely in bed
With the threat of a bomb hanging over your head
Walking down the street like it’s dawn of the dead
When he stayed up late to paint the walls red
You were at home dreaming safely in bed

Love
Roxanne

Enjoy Life

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Nothing But Time is about how everyone is always so focused on the little things in life, like work, bills and taxes, that they forget to actually enjoy it. Excluding accidents and illnesses, we’re all on this Earth for a long time and some of us spend our entire lives without truly living.

We were not born just to work until we die. We should continue learning and growing right up until the end. That’s my plan. I work to pay for my holidays to experience more of the world.

Living in Australia means you grow up kind of isolated from every other country and most people never leave the part of Australia they grew up in. I refuse to be one of those people. I have been to 16 different countries so far and I have a plan to make 30.

I have grown more and learnt more from traveling to see those countries than probably through all those years of school. I done more things, faced more fears, than I thought I ever would and I feel that I have truly lived.

Life is not only about marriage, a house and kids. We should explore more and learn more about other people and cultures so that when we do settle down, we have more to teach our kids about the world.

The point is we shouldn’t live each day for a future that may never happen. Enjoy yourselves. Enjoy life.

Love
Roxanne

This Was Real Life

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I wrote I Am Not Ok because a while ago, I went through something and people still ask questions about it. Like in-depth questions and I just don’t want to talk about it. I mean I’ll give a brief over view of the event but when it comes to the why’s and the how’s, those type of things take me back to that day.

I’m not traumatised by it, at least I don’t think I am, but I don’t want to have to relive it just because some people get a thrill out of hearing drama.

This was not a movie or a TV show. This was real life, it happened to me and some other people and we deserve the right to move on and live our lives without that being the most interesting thing about us.

If you find out something happened to someone you know, please wait for them to bring it up. Even if it was months ago, or years, they may not feel like answering your invasive questions.

I’m sorry if this sounds harsh, I’m just really annoyed at a select few people who wanted detailed play by plays of what went down. One was while I was getting my blood pressure tested. Do you know how hard it is to try and keep your heart rate down while talking about a pretty stressful day?

Love
Roxanne

I Am Not OK

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The past is closing in
It’s from his gun I hide
From the blood and the screams
I’m still hiding inside
The memory of him
Walks the halls like a ghost
When will the terror end
He wasn’t a good host

I don’t wanna hear
Your fake sympathy
Are you enjoying this
There’s nothing to see
I don’t want you here
So just go away
Cause how am I doing
I am not ok

I tried to move on
You kept pulling me back
To bomb threats and violence
And those panic attacks
That day was in the past
The chaos in order
Won’t you let me forget
The cafe of slaughter

I don’t wanna hear
Your fake sympathy
Are you enjoying this
There’s nothing to see
I don’t want you here
So just go away
Cause how am I doing
I am not ok

I wish for silence
Don’t let them see
Fight back the tears
Just let me be
No please don’t ask
You don’t wanna know
I can’t fight the tears
I just let them go

I don’t wanna hear
Your fake sympathy
Are you enjoying this
There’s nothing to see
I don’t want you here
So just go away
Cause how am I doing
I am not ok

Love
Roxanne

Slow Down Your Soul’s March

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Isolated all started with the chorus. Sometimes I’ll get this chorus that I think sounds awesome but then I’ll have no idea what it’s really about. Then I’ll have to spend time thinking over the chorus asking myself “What does this mean?” That’s how these lyrics worked, although it seemed pretty obvious where it was going this time.

It’s about how sometimes life just sucks. Bad things happen all the time and it can really get you down. Kinda makes you wonder what the point is, why go through all this crap just to have to go through more crap tomorrow?

If you can’t find that special thing that makes life feel like it’s worth living then you might be tempted to give up, particularly, if you feel like you’re all alone in this world. Luckily, I’ve got some things to get me through each day, that help me look towards the future and not hate it. Not dread it.

If you haven’t found you special something, then maybe you’re looking in the wrong place. As your soul marches towards its death, take a few detours. Stop and smell the flowers or try a change in scenery. Do what you can to slow down your souls march.

Love
Roxanne

Isolated

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As the skies turn to grey
My eyes are open wide
We choose to live in the dark
While dying on the inside
Now we’re all ageing flesh
And as my broken down soul
Marched towards its death
It never felt so old

I’m isolated
And medicated
You know how quickly
This escalated
I’m isolated
And so frustrated
The world we live in
Is overrated

We all know that inner hate
A hell we can’t overcome
Embraced by each cold day
I just want to stay numb
While I crave the chaos
And love to watch it burn
Each day I grow tired
Why can’t it be my turn

I’m isolated
And medicated
You know how quickly
This escalated
I’m isolated
And so frustrated
The world we live in
Is overrated

I never felt so hopeless
Cause in the end it’s pointless
How did we get so lifeless
Are these dark days endless
I never felt so hopeless
Cause in the end it’s pointless
How did we get so lifeless
Are these dark days endless

I’m isolated
And medicated
You know how quickly
This escalated
I’m isolated
And so frustrated
The world we live in
Is overrated

Love
Roxanne

Lies

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There’s no way you can escape
From voices in your mind
Words only you can hear
You can’t run, you can’t hide
Thoughts running through my head
Questioning all I do
You’re only insane if
The voices answer you

There’s a war taking place
In the trenches of my mind
Every day I face
There’s more battles to fight
Those voices in my head
Memories of a dream
They’re lies you should forget
They are not what they seem

I gotta find the line
Between what’s real and fake
Cause living in your dreams
Means nothing when you wake
So don’t close your eyes
You know sleep is for the dead
And one day you’ll wake up
Trapped inside your head

There’s a war taking place
In the trenches of my mind
Every day I face
There’s more battles to fight
Those voices in my head
Memories of a dream
They’re lies you should forget
They are not what they seem

All the worries I kept inside
All those things I tried to hide
There are things that you can’t fight
Before darkness meets the light
All the worries I kept inside
All those things I tried to hide
There are things that you can’t fight
Before darkness meets the light

There’s a war taking place
In the trenches of my mind
Every day I face
There’s more battles to fight
Those voices in my head
Memories of a dream
They’re lies you should forget
They are not what they seem

Love
Roxanne

Open To Interpretation

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I have no idea what Nowhere is about. I had a tooth ache when I wrote it and was on some strong pain killers, so I can only guess at what it means.

I didn’t finish writing it while on the medication, I was only 3/4 of the way through it and then had to try to get in the same mind frame to finish it. Which, I gotta say, is not easy to do without taking some equally as strong pain meds.

When I finished it, I gave it some meaning that it probably didn’t have before, because it was just the thoughts of someone who wasn’t quite all there.

I can’t tell if ‘Nowhere’ is about someone who’s high and wondering about the meaning of life, if all they do is get high then what’s really the point. Life passes them by and they are stuck in this daze.

Or if ‘Nowhere’ is about someone who died and is living between this life and the next. Their life is flashing before their eyes but they just can’t move on yet.

Anyway, however you interpret it, you can’t wrong. It’s one of those open to interpretation things.

Although if you think it’s about unicorns and puppy dogs, your probably wrong. Probably.

Love
Roxanne

P.S. I should add a disclaimer saying “Don’t Do Drugs!!”

Nowhere

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The world keeps spinning
But I’m not really here
There’s a fog around me
It doesn’t seem to clear
Some distant memories
Are clouding my mind
Of a time I can’t place
Of a place to unwind
I’m trying to focus
To find out what’s real
But I’m so far away
I don’t trust what I feel

I watch life go by
From behind my window
Cause I am nowhere
I’m stuck in limbo
I lie in the shadow
They walk in the sun
Cause I am nowhere
And I am no one

I stare off into space
Cause I’ve stopped blinking
Not floating in the clouds
I feel like I’m sinking
The weight on my chest
It’s pulling me down
I can feel the air
Between me and the ground
The lines are now blurred
I can’t tear them apart
Attached to the veins
That surround my empty heart

I watch life go by
From behind my window
Cause I am nowhere
I’m stuck in limbo
I lie in the shadow
They walk in the sun
Cause I am nowhere
And I am no one

What happens to the world
When you close your eyes
What happens to your soul
When your soul dies
If I’m not really here
Can I stop breathing
What happens to your body
When your heart stops beating

I watch life go by
From behind my window
Cause I am nowhere
I’m stuck in limbo
I lie in the shadow
They walk in the sun
Cause I am nowhere
And I am no one

Love
Roxanne

Every Breath

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You went to work as usual
But that’s when he ran inside
He was holding a pistol
And it ended in a fight
You walked out of the room
With your head held sky high
You escaped your tomb
And you’re not gonna ask why
You have the rest of your life
To live the way you want to
Maybe find yourself a wife
And have a kid or two

You protect the ones you love
No matter the cost to you
You’ve gone beyond and above
It what you always do
With your past set in stone
Now your new life begins
So it’s time to move on
See what this new life brings

When the nightmare was over
You just felt so lucky
Like a four leafed clover
You wanted to be happy
You made a deal with yourself
What you’d do if you got out
Only drink from the top shelf
Find out what life is about
Settle down, travel the world
You could be who you wanted
Or just meet a nice girl
You wouldn’t be haunted

You protect the ones you love
No matter the cost to you
You’ve gone beyond and above
It what you always do
With your past set in stone
Now your new life begins
So it’s time to move on
See what this new life brings

Every step you take
Every breath you breathe
It’s too little too late
It’s the life you didn’t live
Cause you never made it out
You never did get to leave

He protected those he loved
No matter the cost to him
He went beyond and above
It’s what he always did
With his past set in stone
Now his new life begins
So it’s time to move on
See what this new life brings