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A Girl Can Dream

It would suffice to say I wasn’t the most popular girl in high school. I had friends, good friends that I’m still friends with now, but we weren’t the most desirable group of girls. At least according to the guys in our year. But towards the beginning of high school, before our status was really cemented, one of the popular guys showed interest in me.

We had to sit next to each other in several different classes and after a while he started to like me. When he told me he liked me, I didn’t believe him. I thought it was a joke, but it wasn’t. He asked me out and I said yes.

But it was weird because we didn’t hang out outside of class, nothing really changed. Except his friends were apparently trying to get him to break up with me because I wasn’t good enough, popular enough, for him.

After three days he gave in and had one of his friends break up with me for him.

‘This Isn’t High School’ is about that and how I wasn’t good enough for them then, but I’ve changed. I’m no longer that girl, I’ve grown into a more confident, more self-assured version of her. It’s about how if they could see me now, what would they think of me, would they still judge me the same way.

Yes, in the lyrics I’m a famous singer and that hasn’t happened, but a girl can dream. Part of the lyrics are real, the other I’m calling a premonition.

Love
Roxanne

This Isn’t High School

We flirted for months
You said you liked me
We dated for days
It was over in three
But then that’s high school
Girls like me don’t date
We suffer in silence
Through all the hate

But I’m not in high school anymore
Cause now I’m up on stage
Singing to a packed floor
As I dreamt from a young age
I wasn’t cool enough for them
I wonder what they’d say now
If they’d judge me again
But they won’t bring me down

He said he liked me
But they talked him round
So he ended it
Without making a sound
Cause like a coward
He didn’t do it himself
Someone else told me
I’d be by myself

But I’m not in high school anymore
Cause now I’m up on stage
Singing to a packed floor
As I dreamt from a young age
I wasn’t cool enough for them
I wonder what they’d say now
If they’d judge me again
But they won’t bring me down

I look out into the crowd
From my place in the spotlight
When I see him standing there
Please don’t let this be right
I wasn’t enough back then
But now you can see
What you were all missing
You said you liked me

But this isn’t high school anymore
Cause now I’m up on stage
Singing to a packed floor
As I dreamt from a young age
I wasn’t cool enough for you
I wonder what you’d say now
But no matter what you do
You won’t bring me down

Love
Roxanne

Happily Ever After

Paper Crown was written about how when you’re a kid life seems happy and good. But it’s not always. You get told you can be anything you want, do anything you want, but at the time when I was writing it, I didn’t feel so hopeful.

There are always things trying to put you down, obstacles you must face, and sometimes it overwhelms me. Sometimes I feel like I can’t overcome any of it. I just want to go back to when I was a kid and things were simpler.

But all children must grow up and discover that the world isn’t always good. They can be hurt, trampled on and kicked while they’re down, even killed.

But in the end you must have hope that one day your dreams will come true, that you will have that happily ever after you wished for as a kid. We need hope. Without it, what’s the point in living, of life in general.

I have hope. Do you?

Love
Roxanne

Paper Crown

We’re told when we’re young
That we can be anything
The sky is the limit
But don’t believe a thing
You could wish on a star
You could do all things right
But every star dies
Even those that burn bright
And when you step outside
You might not come home
The evil in this world
Could take you before you’ve grown

There was a young princess
Wearing a pink dress
With a paper crown
To match her pretty gown
She had a little tea party
With all her hopes and dreams
Too bad her paper crown
Will get torn somehow
And all those hopes and dreams
Won’t make it through tea

When did life get so dark
We used to have dreams
But then we grew up and
Life was not what it seemed
What happened to those days
The ones on the playground
Where everyone was friendly
And no evil to be found
Let’s go back to those days
The ones filled with laughter
When we truly believed
In happy ever after

There was a young princess
Wearing a pink dress
With a paper crown
To match her pretty gown
She had a little tea party
With all her hopes and dreams
Too bad her paper crown
Will get torn somehow
And all those hopes and dreams
Won’t make it through tea

Twinkle twinkle little star
How I wonder what you are
Make a wish you will go far
But then when you grow old
And see the lies you were told
It leaves you feeling cold

There was a young princess
Wearing a pink dress
With a paper crown
To match her pretty gown
She had a little tea party
With all her hopes and dreams
Maybe her paper crown
Won’t get torn somehow
And all those hopes and dreams
Will make it through tea

Love
Roxanne

The Difference Between Life And Death

Please Don’t is about bullying, physical and cyber bullying, and how sometimes that’s all a person needs to push them over the edge, to commit suicide.

You never know what’s going on inside someone’s mind or in their life. One comment from could you could be the difference between life and death, so you should always make yours a positive one.

I wrote this after some comments I saw on Twitter. There was a bit of an internet war between two different groups of fans and one fandom created a hashtag that said the other fandom should cut deeper next time. There’s never a reason to wish someone would kill themselves.

Bullying and suicide rates have gone up since the invention of social media because it’s harder to protect children against it, but also once a comment is made on social media, it doesn’t just blow away in the wind. It sits there, further emphasising it in the victims mind.

Not to diminish the effect of in person bullying, but that’s not usually happening in the home. A child might go to school and get bullied but, before social media, that’s where it ended. They got a break. But now, it doesn’t have doesn’t there.

Even if it’s a joke, if you don’t mean it, your words affect others. Please think about this next time you go to say something. Or if your on the receiving end of the bullying and you think they only way to stop it is if you kill yourself, please don’t.

Love
Roxanne

Please Don’t

I just want it to stop
Kids can be so cruel
I thought they’d like me
But I was just a fool
They wouldn’t talk to me
And I was laughed at
They called me a freak
And not behind my back
I couldn’t take it no more
I was losing control
So I did what I had to
To climb out of this hole

If only someone would say

Please don’t hurt yourself
I need you to fight
Don’t let their darkness
Takeover your light
Please just hold on
It’s not always this hard
It does get better
Don’t let this day be your last

I can’t do this anymore
With internet these days
Not even home is safe
Cause on my screen it stays
They can’t see how it hurts
Not from behind their keyboard
Now I long for those days
Where I was ignored
And it only got worse when
They found out I’m a bleeder
They had friendly advice like
I think you should cut deeper

If only someone would say

Please don’t hurt yourself
I need you to fight
Don’t let their darkness
Takeover your light
Please just hold on
It’s not always this hard
It does get better
Don’t let this day be your last

I’m drowning in a sea of darkness
There’s no escape its endless
As the blood runs down my hand
I promise this won’t happen again

Please don’t hurt yourself
I need you to fight
Don’t let their darkness
Takeover your light
Please just hold on
It’s not always this hard
It does get better
Don’t let this day be your last

Love
Roxanne

I Have To Believe It

I’ve Had This Dream is basically exactly what it sounds like. Ever since I was little, I’ve had this dream where I become a singer.

I’ve always written lyrics but I never thought for a second anything would come of it. Now I determined to get my lyrics out there, I’ve decided to create opportunities for myself, To give myself the chance of making a living writing songs, or playing for a crowd of people.

I was always too afraid to pursue this dream, but recently have decided, why not? Even if I don’t end up where I want, going after the thing I want the most, can only mean I’ll end where I’m supposed to be.

I believe everything happens for a reason, even if it isn’t want you think. I believe that I’ve had this dream for a reason. Even if I don’t end up writing songs for a living, or up on stage performing, an opportunity will arise along the way, that’ll be where I’m supposed to be. I have to believe it.

Love
Roxanne

I’ve Had This Dream

I’m up on stage
The crowd is screaming
I love it up here
It feels so freeing
They call out to me
With their hands out reaching
And when the bands starts
The crowd starts singing
I give them my all
To keep them cheering
I need this more
Than the air I’m breathing

There is no better feeling

Ever since I was little
I’ve had this dream
Where I’m in the dark and
Then the lights gleam
The crowd is cheering
Screaming my name
The room is so alive
And it’s energy aflame

There’s a meet up
Outside after my show
The number of fans
Continues to grow
I’d be there for them
Wherever I have to go
Even if it feels like its
Above freezing or below
I give them my time
Even take it slow
Because I love them
And they need to know

I watch as their faces glow

Ever since I was little
I’ve had this dream
Where I’m in the dark and
Then the lights gleam
Connecting with people
Fans liking my songs
Give us both a place
Where we feel we belong

My album just dropped
And it hit number one
I never imagined
This when I had begun
I was just a kid
It was just a bit of fun
But It’s gone beyond
My expectations outdone
And so now today
Is my day in the sun
I fought for this life
And I’ve finally won

Number one at twenty one

Ever since I was little
I’ve had this dream
Where I’m in the dark and
Then the lights gleam
After walking around for
Most of my life unseen
I finally made my mark
On the music scene

It’s awards night
And I’m dressed to the nines
The dress I picked
Changed a million times
Everyone is seated
The starting bell chimes
The show must go on
As everyone dines
They called my name
So I start to rise
And walk to the stage
To collect my prize

This is for you guys

But I looked at my life
And what it was instead
I hated to think
This is all in my head

Ever since I was little
I’ve had this dream
Where I’m in the dark and
Then the lights gleam
But when I wake up
I just want to scream
If only it were real
I’d stop having this dream

Love
Roxanne

Perfect Mess

I don’t really know what the idea behind I Love You Anyway came from. I was just sitting at work and thought it would be cool to have a girl say all the reasons she should hate her boyfriend, but she loves him in spite of all that. Then when I was writing it, these lyrics came out. I started writing it more sarcastic, like, I guess I could still love you even though you’re perfect, but then I realised these are some of the reasons I won’t date a guy.

If a guy holds the door open for me, I think he thinks I can’t do it myself and that annoys me. But at the same I like it when guys open doors for girls.

If a guy can’t stand his ground in a fight, it’s like he’s weak, but I like to win arguments.

If a guy looks scruffy, then it like he’s dirty, but if he takes pride in the way he looks, then he’s a tool.

I don’t know if anyone else has these thoughts running through their head when they meet a guy, but they are probably the reason I’m still single. That and I’m like super busy.

But if you know of a guy who’s like a perfect mess, I could maybe find the time.

Jokes.

I’m busy.

Love
Roxanne

I Love You Anyway

We need to have a talk
And I need to do it today
You might wanna take a seat
Cause I got a lot to say
I hate the way you cut your hair
Always stylish and neat
Or how when we’re in a fight
You end up caving in defeat
And how dare you offer to pay
When we go out to dinner
But some how I still think
I’ve picked a real winner

Cause I love you anyway
Even though you annoy me
Each and everyday
Yeah I love you anyway
I couldn’t get rid of you
Even if I wanted to
Not now you’re under my skin
Just like an ugly tattoo

Why are you always on time
When you know I won’t be
And we always have to cuddle
Just to make you happy
You open doors for me
Like you think I need help
As if that type of thing
Should make my beating heart melt
I hate the way you look at me
And the way you say my name
I hate the way you love me and
That you aren’t playing any game

But I love you anyway
Even though you annoy me
Each and everyday
Yeah I love you anyway
I couldn’t get rid of you
Even if I wanted to
Not now you’re under my skin
Just like an ugly tattoo

You like me best when
I’m in your sweatshirt
You always make me smile
And never treat me like dirt
For these reasons and more
I loved you from the start
The day you bumped into me
You poked my heart

And I love you anyway
Even though you annoy me
Each and everyday
Yeah I love you anyway
I couldn’t get rid of you
Even if I wanted to
Not now you’re under my skin
Just like an ugly tattoo

Love
Roxanne