Get Out Of My Head is about someone who has witnessed people being murdered and now he feels guilty. That guilt has manifested itself as voices in his head, telling him to take his own life to atone for not helping to save their life.

I wrote it kind of disjointed like their mind was scattered and not making sense to, show that they might have been losing their mind a bit. That it was all in their head.

I wrote it as I was feeling similarly scattered. Not out of guilt, or maybe it was, maybe I was projecting and I do feel guilty. I mentioned in my earlier post, I’m Still There that I went through something recently and while for the most part I’m fine, sometimes something brings it all back. It’s during those moments when I’m not fine and writing about is the only way I know how to get through it.

It feels weird to sharing all this, but I made a promise with myself to be completely honest. Although with nobody actually reading my posts yet it’s kind of like spilling all my secrets to a brick wall.

Love
Roxanne

Broken Inside is about a girl who is feeling down about her life. She has been strong and kept it hidden for so long but it was becoming too much. She almost gave up but decided to give living another go.

Admittedly it’s not one of my best but I used write quite dark endings and so I like that she doesn’t give in to her sadness that was threatening to overcome her. She has hope for a brighter future and I guess, since I wrote it, it means I have hope for a brighter future.

The night is darkest just before the dawn.

Love
Roxanne

If You Only Knew is about the effects of social media on young girls(and boys). The girl in the song becomes obsessed with a young male celebrity and is desperate to get his attention. Her life is solely about getting a follow from him on twitter. She tweets him pictures to get him to notice her but his other female fans see it and get territorial. These girls are also obsessed with this guy and see this girl as a threat to them getting noticed by their ‘sunshine’. So they bully this girl until she loses all self worth and no longer likes what she sees in the mirror. She’s still obsessed with this guy but where before she was determined to get noticed by him, it was her reason for waking up each day. Now it’s had a negative effect on her. No longer believing she is worthy of this guy and that he won’t ever notice her, there’s no longer a reason for her to get up in the morning. She becomes depressed and with people on social media telling her to go kill herself, she decides to do just that.

This girl became so obsessed that she couldn’t see those who cared about her. She couldn’t see how anyone could care about her after the other girls bullied her.

I decided to write this song after seeing some things being said to and by some of those I follow on twitter. I see girls posting pictures of their ‘sunshine’ or their favourite young male celebrity with the caption “If you need me I’ll be digging my grave”. Whether they are actually serious or not is besides the point. If they’re posting about suicide, then it’s likely they’ve thought about suicide.

Then there’s the hate between the fandoms of different celebrities or bands. I once saw one fandom create a hashtag that said another fandom should cut deeper next time they try to hurt themselves. It’s not right and I felt someone should do something to make people realise that that’s not how we should treat each other.

Telling someone they should go kill themselves, whether you mean it literally or not, is careless. You never know where that person’s head is at when they read it. It may be the thing they need to push them over the edge.

Please be kind to one another.

Love
Roxanne