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We Are All Crazy

Lies is about not knowing when you’re going crazy or not or trying to fight it when you think you are. Like when you day-dream so much that sometimes you forget which things actually happened and which you made up. Or when you have an argument with yourself in your mind but you accidentally respond out loud.

We all have a little bit of crazy in us but the goal is to not let the crazy win. To stay in touch with reality and remember that the voice you’re arguing against is just your own self-doubt. You should probably just turn that voice to shut up, because it’s usually wrong.

Love
Roxanne

Lies

There’s no way you can escape
From voices in your mind
Words only you can hear
You can’t run, you can’t hide
Thoughts running through my head
Questioning all I do
You’re only insane if
The voices answer you

There’s a war taking place
In the trenches of my mind
Every day I face
There’s more battles to fight
Those voices in my head
Memories of a dream
They’re lies you should forget
They are not what they seem

I gotta find the line
Between what’s real and fake
Cause living in your dreams
Means nothing when you wake
So don’t close your eyes
You know sleep is for the dead
And one day you’ll wake up
Trapped inside your head

There’s a war taking place
In the trenches of my mind
Every day I face
There’s more battles to fight
Those voices in my head
Memories of a dream
They’re lies you should forget
They are not what they seem

All the worries I kept inside
All those things I tried to hide
There are things that you can’t fight
Before darkness meets the light
All the worries I kept inside
All those things I tried to hide
There are things that you can’t fight
Before darkness meets the light

There’s a war taking place
In the trenches of my mind
Every day I face
There’s more battles to fight
Those voices in my head
Memories of a dream
They’re lies you should forget
They are not what they seem

Love
Roxanne

What To Do Next

Box of Feelings was written on a train to an over night bus to Zagreb, Croatia. I was nearing the end of my Europe trip and thinking about what to do next. This was my second Europe trip and other than the fact that I’ve seen more countries than I had last year, I’m in the exact same place that I was.

I have a plan, but it’s too long-term. It’s not something I can achieve any time soon and in order to survive until then I need a short-term plan. I didn’t have the long-term plan when I came back from my trip last year, so I suppose something is different from last year.

My long-term plan is to write songs and sell them, either with someone else’s name on it and with my own. That had been my dream that I kept a secret, even from myself, for years, and even though it’s still the plan I feel like I’m putting it on the back burner. I feel like I’m starting to hide from it again. Like I’m afraid to fail again and it’s keeping that dream on a leash.

That’s what these lyrics are about. With no real plan in sight I wasn’t looking forward to coming home to the dreams I was running from.

But now I have a short-term plan and thinking more about my long-term plan. I just hope it works out.

Love
Roxanne

Box Of Dreams

I had begun to dream
You didn’t think I could
It was just out of reach
I tried to prove I would
But reality set in
And it’s slipping away
All while I’m drowning
With each dying day

I’m not special
I can’t do this
I try and I fail
I fail and I miss
From start to finish
You knew the truth
I fail and I miss
This is your proof

It’s too late to start
I left my dreams behind
In the towns I passed
One country at a time
With my home in sight
My life where I left it
I’m losing this fight
Tell me this isn’t it

I’m not special
I can’t do this
I try and I fail
I fail and I miss
From start to finish
You knew the truth
I fail and I miss
This is your proof

Home is where the heart stays
Locked away with my dreams
I’m better off this way
The voice in my head screams
But with nothing else here
I question all I’ve done
Holding onto my fear
Not trying for a home run

I’m not special
I can’t do this
I try and I fail
I fail and I miss
From start to finish
You knew the truth
I fail and I miss
This is your proof

I’m trapped by the fear of my own making
I can’t break through this glass ceiling
Too afraid I’ll be cut by the shards
I can’t break out of this box of feelings

I’m not special
I can’t do this
I try and I fail
I fail and I miss
From start to finish
You knew the truth
I fail and I miss
This is your proof

Love
Roxanne

Traveling With My Friends

Castles was written while I was sitting in the back of a car, my two friends in the front, driving from one side of Ireland to the other. It was a long drive and I get bored easily. There’s only so much to see on a motorway.

I’ve known these girls for ten years, from back when we started high school and this is our second Europe trip together. They say it takes seven years to build a solid friendship but I think that if you can spend four weeks traveling across a continent with only each other to really talk too, and by the end you’re still friends, you’ll be friends for life.

Unless one of you has like a serious change in personality and does something really horrible to another one of you, then maybe things won’t last so long, but like what are the odds?

As we were driving along, we’d go through these small towns and see castles and old houses surrounded by much newer houses and I just thought how cool it looked. But also that it was kinda like me and my friends. The old next to the new, it seems like one should be out of place but they work together.

My friends and I are so different. We don’t even look like we’d be friends. When you see groups of girls walking in the shops, they all dress the same. We have completely different tastes in clothes and guys and even food. But somehow we work. And I think it’s our differences that’ll ensure that our friendship, like the castles, will stand the test of time.

Trust me when I say, there’s no way we’d ever get bored with one another. That’s how I know that one day in the distant future we’ll be sitting in some bar somewhere in the world, maybe with our families, maybe we left them at home. We’ll be talking about our days traveling and what we were like in our youth, before life became serious, and it’ll be just like how it is now. We’ll make jokes no one else gets and laugh too loud at things others don’t find funny.

Cause we’re the three best friends. *said in a sing-song voice*

You won’t get that. But they will.

Love
Roxanne

Castles

Living while still young
We’re waiting on fate
Not even the grey clouds
Can rain on our parade
Travelling in silence
Blaring Fleetwood Mac
We road trip cross country
Me writing in the back

Bonds forged on the playground
Tested on unknown lands
Even after all this time
These old castles still stand
Living tomorrow’s past
History’s on our side
These castles will still stand
Long after we have died

We spent months apart
But nothing’s changed
We’re still as crazy
Still just as strange
Towns passing us by
Old mixed with new
Something’s we’ve borrowed
Something in blue

Bonds forged on the playground
Tested on unknown lands
Even after all this time
These old castles still stand
Living tomorrow’s past
History’s on our side
These castles will still stand
Long after we have died

Years from now
Sitting in some bar
Thinking back on these days
We’ve come so far
Years from now
Something’s have changed
Thinking back on these days
We’re still just as strange

Bonds forged on the playground
Tested on unknown lands
Even after all this time
These old castles still stand
Living tomorrow’s past
History’s on our side
These castles will still stand
Long after we have died

Love
Roxanne

A Psychotic Girl

Wilhelm Scream took me weeks to write. Usually I can complete a set of lyrics in a day or two if I’m motivated enough (I do wonder if they sound like they’ve been rushed) but these lyrics took me so long because I came out with this chorus and a melody to go with it but I had no idea what the lyrics were supposed to mean.

I usually come up with an idea first then start writing with a line or two as the inspiration but with Wilhelm Scream, I had these lines and I didn’t know exactly what they meant but they were catchy. It took me a while to figure out exactly what I wanted them to say.

But in the end I decided to make it about a girl who can sometimes be really sweet to a guy but then sometimes be a total bitch. Not like girls normally are (hey I’m a girl too, so no offence intended) with their mood swings but more on the psychotic side. Yet this guy sticks around because for some reason he craves the crazy side of her too. He’s so caught up in her drama that he doesn’t realise it’s unhealthy for him.

So in a way they are equal parts perfect for each other and wrong for each other.

Love
Roxanne

P.S. Sorry I haven’t been writing much. I haven’t been that motivated but I’m getting some of that back.

Wilhelm Scream

Light shines through the curtain
Your heart starts beating fast
Each morning I awake
Walking on broken glass
Who will win this tug of war
The beauty or the beast
Both keep you by my side
With your self-imposed leash
The clocks stop as I wake
The time to run has past
With a smile on my face
The beast awakes at last

I’ve got that Wilhelm Scream
That just drives you insane
And the click of my heels
Has you running away
The venom from my lips
Leaves you crying my name
I’ve got that Wilhelm Scream
You don’t try to escape

I’m the girl in your nightmares
The monster in your dreams
And the beat of your heart
Is enough to make me scream
As my patience wears you down
Like a chain round your neck
The bomb in me starts ticking
Just wait til I’m upset
But you come crawling back
Each time I scare you away
I’m the Queen of your heart
I command you to stay

I’ve got that Wilhelm Scream
That just drives you insane
And the click of my heels
Has you running away
The venom from my lips
Leaves you crying my name
I’ve got that Wilhelm Scream
You don’t try to escape

He sleeps with his finger
Resting on the trigger
He sleeps with his finger
Resting on the trigger
He sleeps with his finger
Resting on the trigger
Didn’t your mama teach you
Don’t bite the hand that beats you

I’ve got that Wilhelm Scream
That just drives you insane
And the click of my heels
Has you running away
The venom from my lips
Leaves you crying my name
I’ve got that Wilhelm Scream
You don’t try to escape

Love
Roxanne

Totally Gross

Skin Crawl was written about how there’s this older guy at my work (much older, and quite married), who has a fondness for younger women.

It’s quite creepy and I don’t appreciate it, but like a lot of things, I felt better after writing about it. There’s no like touching or anything, and nothing has been said that’s too inappropriate but still…

It’s mostly exaggerated anyway. I have an active imagination and when I get bored at work (which is always) my brain kind of goes off on a worst case scenario tangent. So he made a comment about something and I made it seem worse than it was for dramatic effect.

I mean he’s still creepy, but has yet to do anything that would be grounds for sexual harassment. Thank God!! He’s totally gross.

Love
Roxanne

Skin Crawl

There I was sitting all alone
When you walk in on the phone
I looked up and caught you staring
Looking at the clothes I’m wearing
It made things really awkward
When did life get so backward
I know you watch me when I walk
And don’t listen when I talk
I know you don’t think I see it
But when you stare at me I feel it

So to you I say this

I’ve had enough of the staring
And calling me a good girl
You’re old enough to be my dad
And it makes my skin crawl
So why don’t you give it a rest
And stick to your own life
Or maybe just go home
Back to your wife

He didn’t listen when I said
Stop picturing me in your bed
It just seemed to make it worse
So when we cross paths I change course
He doesn’t just stare at my legs
He now comments on my dress
In your pocket is that a pistol
It’s not enough to just wolf whistle

So to you I say this

I’ve had enough of the staring
And calling me good girl
You’re old enough to be my dad
And it makes my skin crawl
So why don’t you give it a rest
And stick to your own life
Or maybe just go home
Back to your wife

Did you just wink at me
Please don’t do that
Did you just growl at me
I don’t like that
Did you just touch me
Don’t you dare do that

I’ve had enough of the staring
And calling me good girl
You’re old enough to be my dad
And it makes my skin crawl
So why don’t you give it a rest
And stick to your own life
Or maybe just go home
Back to your wife

Love
Roxanne